noahjm

well.. i was supposed to go to the renaissance fair with this kewl ass fucking chick today... but i decided to stay up all night getting fucked up and stuff.. (drinking and smoking pot)

i end up passing out around 5am when im supposed to call her at 830 in the morning and let her know where im at so we can meet up and go..

i wake up at 130pm and she's left 2 voice mails and 2 text messages on my phone..

i tried to call her and apologize.. i tried to text her and apologize...

i think ive just fucked up something that could of have been so good... so great..

but then again.. if it could be so good/so great.. then she will hear the messages and read the texts and call me back and understand! yes.. =)

yeah right.. we live in a world of wish's and dreams right?

today.. a day that will live in our hearts, minds, and souls for the rest of our lives... today is the beginning of the end.. today marks the offical start of the holy war...

pope john paul II has died today.. (even though i think he really died yesterday and the catholic church wont admit that because what kind of god takes the highest, most closest person to him on APRIL FOOLS DAY) (it makes me think that god is just making a mockery of organized religion and trying to prove a point..)

*sighs* oh well.. atleast i can hopefully achieve my dream of dying by the time im 40 =)