no_u

I'm not used to studying / learning like this. Not too mention that I am very out of practice with scholarly studies. I've realized that anything that I've read up, learned, studied, in the last decade has either been on my own terms and conditions or forcibly by the employer; which, may be why I am so fucking frustrated at fucking studying outside those two terms!

I just have to keep telling myself the following:
- relax
- patience
- stay focused
- keep at everyday, even if its just for a few minutes

If all goes well, in a little over 4 weeks, I will be looking back at this moment with a big ass smile on my face, relieved that I didn't throw in the towel and just walk away.

And if not, I'll settle for a big ass on my face.

Night Ya'll