I finally feel free of a lot of guilt and bad feelings that I've had for many many years. My family and I have moved to a new home, a place that truly feels like home. The old house was good to us, provided us shelter and got us started. However without going in to details there are many things that I wish I could have done over while there and they have weighted heavily on me over the years. This guilt consumed me and caused me to not take great care of myself, get complacent with everything that I was doing. All those things are not the old houses fault, but for some reason it always pressed my down. I'm happy to say that I no longer feel that way. I'm hoping that this isn't just a streak because things are new, but I feel more energized. All the things that weighted on me have been left behind and I feel like I can live a better life for myself which in turn will be better for my family as well. I'm looking forward to being better to myself, treating myself in happy ways. I'm working on being more present and increasing my physical activity as well. I started by taking my dog on longer walks, trying to beat my time and distance from the previous day on my watch.
I feel better getting this out of my head. I've never told anyone how I've felt because i didn't think they'd understand. Happy to have it out now and on to better times for me.
