nirbhao

skip tracing is not what I want to do with my life.

I have been so grateful for this job during this time of transition, because I was pretty unemployable. the majority of my work experience is driving, and I can't drive because of the seizure disorder. then, I have research, legal, and finance with no qualifications whatsoever. THEN, I had the whole issue of my work history being across multiple states and cities because I went out of state for college and yet another city for law school. add that to my four month gap of unemployment when I had my heart surgery followed by four jobs that I held for only a matter of months (because I really do struggle with work now), my rsum absolutely sucks. oh, and on top of all of that, I had the three inaccurate items in showing in collection on my credit report that made me look even more irresponsible than I actually am!

two weeks ago, I had an evaluation with a psychologist to determine my cognitive abilities, including, but not limited to, whether I am even able to work. she told me that she would have results for me this week. on wednesday I called her and left a message because we weren't sure whether my mom should be there for the results or not and I said that it would be best for her to be there. she hasn't called me back.

I am frustrated.

I need to know what I am going to be doing with my life.

I need to get out of this limbo.

I'm afraid that I won't have the stamina to maintain employment at any job. hopefully I just need to find the right job. really what I want is enough money to start my business.

(and buy a house and pay my student loans and medical bills and get tattoos)