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Thursday May 01, 2003

May 1, 2003
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dammit--i've gone and done it. i'm in stasis. froze, kinda. it's temporary, i know. been waiting for a muse. a next wave of inspiration. not hitting.

i've been dilligent about following up leads for making music, and still have 3 gigs lined up this weekend, and a 4th on the way.

just a little bit confused. it's crazy, i know, but i don't feel cute enough. appealing enough. can you imagine?? i KNOW i'm messed up if i'm feeling this way... i'm such a good goddamn catch... miao!!

i just feel like giving up, though. this online matchmaking bit is for the birds. i miss jessica. she made me feel so valued and appreciated. but the deal is, when she was gone, she was gone (even back when she lived here)>

if i can't generate that value for myself, that SELF-esteem, who else is going to appreciate it.

NUTS! i HATE growing up... wink
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kemal:
YO !
you gotta get me your contact information asap. we got this new jam were working on. kind of a follow up for the record that just got signed with E-man so we were feeling of trying to break a new voice in the house music genre. Give me a number where i can call you @ and a good time to reach you. Wed like to get you down here if possible and give it a shot and see if it might work if youre up to that? email me
kemal@theworldsmostbeautiful.com
May 2, 2003
clovesbud:
That profile pic is sooo fucking sexy. I was reading your journal, like a good boy, and then I looked over at your pic and suddenly didn't give a shit what you had to say.

Fucking men. It's sad. It really is....

Cutie!

biggrin biggrin
May 2, 2003

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