ninji

Not like y'all are following along in the nooks and crannies of details, but a crush I'd mentioned a while back (using words like "am I dumb?!" and such like this), it's settling in.

Slowly evaporating. LIke a vapor trail in a clear blue sky. It happened nice and soft like I wanted it to.

Homeboy is still around and still lovely--it's just reality is setting in. His considerate and prolly unwitting compassion in this sitch has helped immensely. Nice to be allowed time to uncrush by allowing the details of reality to come to you in soft layers of light that allow you to see in the dark--foggy becoming clear, slowly, gently.

I've never softly unfurled my crush-thoughts just so. It's helpful and somehow healing...hard to explain. He's just phrasing his romantic entanglements in the right way, so that I don't feel talked down to or excluded, and so that it's an inspiration if nothing else.

Finally (finally!) rather than crushing out all the more, it's allowing me to strive and just get my own sitch happening, whatever the heck that will turn out to be.

True, it may be a challenge to be around him (if someone's yummy to you, it can set one atwitter until one becomes accustomed), but that is gonna happen to be regardless of said yummy party. Acceptance such like this is helpful and healing. And I'm all about dah-help and dah-healing these days.

(sigh of belief)
-Be.