ninji

i wrote this to a friend about 1 year ago. 3/21/03. i wish i was more blissful about spirituality now, like i was then. i know i have evolved. same life themes going on right now. i wrote:

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Sent: Thursday, March 21, 2002 2:33 PM
Subject: lovers, "haters..."

hello.

in my meditation today i asked my Self, "what do i do about the people i love? what does it mean? what actions should i take? what does love mean?" then i reflected for a minute, no answer...then i thought..."while i'm at it...what about the people that i love but i don't understand? that i feel uncomfortable around? help me take my next step. what do i need to learn here?"

i was thinking i'd get *2* answers, right?

after i let go, to go to the next thought, i got this:

"love them enough to allow them to make their own choices."

my next thought was, there is no RIGHT way to do this. for people i love, i disavow leashes. and it's the same for the people i love, who i do not understand or feel safe/comfortable around.

yup....

= )