i love you all so much.
i miss my friend who kept me rapt here for a little while.
he defected.
it's funny -- don't think i've ever missed someone's online presence whom i still see from time to time in real life.
proof positive i am a str8 up online addict.
you know the song "orgasm addict?" well, um, i may be an online...
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i miss my friend who kept me rapt here for a little while.
he defected.
it's funny -- don't think i've ever missed someone's online presence whom i still see from time to time in real life.
proof positive i am a str8 up online addict.
you know the song "orgasm addict?" well, um, i may be an online...
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we are all eternal
all is good
we are all eternal
what we love in our hearts lives forever
if fear doubt or uncertainty raises its head up
just bop it down with this reminder:
all is good
we are eternal
what we love in our hearts lives forever
who we are
that's a forever thing
when fear comes
tell it to "shush" so you...
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all is good
we are all eternal
what we love in our hearts lives forever
if fear doubt or uncertainty raises its head up
just bop it down with this reminder:
all is good
we are eternal
what we love in our hearts lives forever
who we are
that's a forever thing
when fear comes
tell it to "shush" so you...
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thee_blacklisted:
today's was very good -- always love reading your jrnl!!! danke.
zenhell:
hagiography the writing and critical study of the lives
of the saints
hagiolatry the worship of the saints
hagiolgy the branch of literature dealing with the lives
and legends of the saints
peace
of the saints
hagiolatry the worship of the saints
hagiolgy the branch of literature dealing with the lives
and legends of the saints
peace
vessel = open.
maybe an environment where i am allowed to be myself.
and people don't care that you post journal entries on sites such like this.
maybe a place where the environs are open
mr. miracle, i'm ready for my close-up
maybe an environment where i am allowed to be myself.
and people don't care that you post journal entries on sites such like this.
maybe a place where the environs are open
mr. miracle, i'm ready for my close-up
march 27 i'm performing
anyone in the san diego area, please check this out (i just cut and pasted it from the SG events blurb)
ninji (jianda) performs w/gretchen lieberum
Thursday March 27 @ 08:00 pm
galoka bar (san diego)
5662 La Jolla Blvd.
la jolla CA 92037
USA
come see Jianda performing (a)live opening for jazz artist gretchen lieberum (lakeshore records) yummy indian food!...
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_v_:
what are you doing
sacrificing 2 lambs
when you
say those words
to hurt me
you are sacrificing
two lambs
bloodsport
for no purpose
and you break open the soft wooly creature
just for the sake of breaking it
so that you might hear the snap of the limbs
(you are sacrificing two lambs)
you're working hard to smash my innocence and trust
with your words
and your false...
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when you
say those words
to hurt me
you are sacrificing
two lambs
bloodsport
for no purpose
and you break open the soft wooly creature
just for the sake of breaking it
so that you might hear the snap of the limbs
(you are sacrificing two lambs)
you're working hard to smash my innocence and trust
with your words
and your false...
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suoda:
i am back my dear. excellent entry. there is something about using lambs as a basis for sacrifice. they are such gentle precious creatures.
AND, i heard your music on the mp3.com page. excellent work! i am incredibly impressed! your voice is excellent and has a real soothing sensation to it. congratulations. it leaves a lasting impression. thanks for sharing.
AND, i heard your music on the mp3.com page. excellent work! i am incredibly impressed! your voice is excellent and has a real soothing sensation to it. congratulations. it leaves a lasting impression. thanks for sharing.
leiru13:
yeats..."the ceremony of innocence is drowned...mere anarchy is loosed upon the world"
I hope I remembered that right.
I hope I remembered that right.
march 27 i'm performing
anyone in the san diego area, please check this out (i just cut and pasted it from the SG events blurb)
ninji (jianda) performs w/gretchen lieberum
Thursday March 27 @ 08:00 pm
galoka bar (san diego)
5662 La Jolla Blvd.
la jolla CA 92037
USA
come see Jianda performing (a)live opening for jazz artist gretchen lieberum (lakeshore records) yummy indian food!...
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anyone in the san diego area, please check this out (i just cut and pasted it from the SG events blurb)
ninji (jianda) performs w/gretchen lieberum
Thursday March 27 @ 08:00 pm
galoka bar (san diego)
5662 La Jolla Blvd.
la jolla CA 92037
USA
come see Jianda performing (a)live opening for jazz artist gretchen lieberum (lakeshore records) yummy indian food!...
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_v_:
wish i could, but i cannot
_v_:
you did type that out loud
ha
everbody....
ha
everbody....
"say you'll stay
don't come and go like you do
sway my way
yeah i need to know all about you"
bic runga, from "sway"
-
_sway_
you will pass
like a mosaic of stone
that sparkles
calling out to me
as i'm whisked away on an
open air tourist bus
you will pass
like an overheard semi-audible
conversation
about all things silent soft and...
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fallen1carus:
the cam does have a redeye feature, but i've found that it makes no difference at all... the problem (as they tell me all the time when i see the doctor) is that i have big ol' pupils. they always say "are you taking any medications? anything at all?" then they shine lights in my eyes to make sure they react. no sir, i'm not taking any medications.
thanks for the compliment... you're quite the lovely lady yourself, you know. my sister even told me that when she was on the phone with my dad after you and i left, she said "she has beautiful creamy chocolate skin"... and you do. something in your demeanor makes one just feel good...
thanks for the compliment... you're quite the lovely lady yourself, you know. my sister even told me that when she was on the phone with my dad after you and i left, she said "she has beautiful creamy chocolate skin"... and you do. something in your demeanor makes one just feel good...
_v_:
i so wish i could get my thoughts out of my head
and written the way you can
my thoughts stay in that shell on my shoulders
all jumbled
like gridlocked traffic
and written the way you can
my thoughts stay in that shell on my shoulders
all jumbled
like gridlocked traffic
vessel = open.
let's shift the focus away from the 'unrequited' jag.
let's upgrade, shall we?
a little respite in the requited desire part.
thanks, universe. that is all.
ji
let's shift the focus away from the 'unrequited' jag.
let's upgrade, shall we?
a little respite in the requited desire part.
thanks, universe. that is all.
ji
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ninji:
mmm yummy. thank you all for being honest. i shall wed you all. i am in love with every last one of you.
did i just type that out loud?
ji
did i just type that out loud?
ji
hedy1:
YAY for redfining the context 
_forgotten daydreams_
"forgotten daydreams/
never go away/
they're the root/
of all desire"-
kevin gant, from "look and sense of claire"
http://mp3.com/kevingant
-
they say that man needs to create his challenges
where there are none
so that he might shape and refine his character
his quality of life
and the things he appreciates
so that he might progress and evolve
or better indulge in...
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"forgotten daydreams/
never go away/
they're the root/
of all desire"-
kevin gant, from "look and sense of claire"
http://mp3.com/kevingant
-
they say that man needs to create his challenges
where there are none
so that he might shape and refine his character
his quality of life
and the things he appreciates
so that he might progress and evolve
or better indulge in...
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_v_:
rockin
i forgot my dreams
i told myself i would remember them
but of course the awakening began and i forgotted
i forgot my dreams
i told myself i would remember them
but of course the awakening began and i forgotted
april1:
Ah yes... to dream. That's all I do these days.... dream.
As Shakespear once wrote, and I may be paraphrasing: "We are such stuff as dreams are made of." These days there's almost nothing that we can dream that we can't make a reality.
As Shakespear once wrote, and I may be paraphrasing: "We are such stuff as dreams are made of." These days there's almost nothing that we can dream that we can't make a reality.
i wrote this to a friend about 1 year ago. 3/21/03. i wish i was more blissful about spirituality now, like i was then. i know i have evolved. same life themes going on right now. i wrote:
* * *
Sent: Thursday, March 21, 2002 2:33 PM
Subject: lovers, "haters..."
hello.
in my meditation today i asked my Self, "what do i do about...
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Sent: Thursday, March 21, 2002 2:33 PM
Subject: lovers, "haters..."
hello.
in my meditation today i asked my Self, "what do i do about...
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glorybox111:
I wanna snuggle you.
a35mmlife:
i am nothing to aspire towards trust me... and i am so busy with abosultly nothing that i dont have time to do anything. trust me. its messy in there... you might wanna get a flashlight to find yer way out...
i keep playing that nasa song over and over again... where did you fid that? who are they?
i keep playing that nasa song over and over again... where did you fid that? who are they?
hm. flash forward. responses to my personal ad are trickling in. it's such a cute, courageous process. dipping toe in water. anyone who thinks otherwise doesn't realize! (LOL)
i have yet to receive any responses from artsy types, but respondents thus far seem to enjoy and really love life. so that's quite nice. at the end of the day, isn't it love, and not art...
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i have yet to receive any responses from artsy types, but respondents thus far seem to enjoy and really love life. so that's quite nice. at the end of the day, isn't it love, and not art...
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thee_blacklisted:
best of luck with the personal ad -- that shit is scary to do, man!!!
hedy1:
the act of reading your entries is always a grounding thing j! which is so cool. personal ad, huh? i've never dabbled. only dithered. heh. but i bet it could be a good thing - i know two couple that have been together for ages that met that way. hype is silly - putting yourself out there is a great thing.
not exactly sure what the formula is. i have placed a personal ad online because i do want color and vivacity in my life.
stop.
i figure connections can happen however they need to happen, whether i meet the love of my life in whole foods, or a sweet soulfriend with benefits at some poetry reading or other.
stop.
vessel = open.
open letters to...
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stop.
i figure connections can happen however they need to happen, whether i meet the love of my life in whole foods, or a sweet soulfriend with benefits at some poetry reading or other.
stop.
vessel = open.
open letters to...
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_v_:
i don't think i am a poet
i can barely right
if i am
i sure as hell do it by accident
i will never post
mens look silly posing
yuck
especially me
super yuck
i can barely right
if i am
i sure as hell do it by accident
i will never post
mens look silly posing
yuck
especially me
super yuck
good things
like the feeling i get when i take a nice pee
all ways