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Sunday Dec 19, 2010

Dec 19, 2010
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Huh. That time of year again. And again, it's gotten here way too fast.

I seem to be caught up in this cycle of being down/depressed about my situation, and so not feeling too motivated to do things like look for jobs or improve my portfolio, or get much done. And then, when I let myself get distracted, and don't get much done, I'm depressed again.
I have gotten a couple applications done over the past couple days, so that's something.
But I have been wondering if the depression and lack of motivation is all environmental.
Pretty far back, I can remember having this problem with motivation and direction. Knowing there are things I need to do, but just procrastinating, and not getting them done. And really, I'm not sure what's up with that.
Lately, I've honestly been considering getting some sort of professional help. And then I tell myself, "nah, I don't need it. I can rise above this crap on my own." But then, I'm not sure again.
Something definitely has to change. I just wish I could figure out how to make it happen.


aand, on a less selfish/introspective note: this yearly link is overdue.

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