so, it's official I hate "growing up". It's not even about the usually drama, because I figure, life would be boring with out it right? It's the inability to believe anything anymore. you know how when you were a kid you could just believe in something because that just the way you felt without questioning it at all. I can't seem to be able to do that anymore and I chalk it up to freaking growing up. I hate it. I want to believe in fairies, destiny, and GASP god. I can't seem to just believe. it makes me even more mad that I can't and that inturn makes it even harder to just let go and believe because it makes everything seem more hopeless. like, I can't even believe in something simple, so many horrible things have happened and hurt me that I can't even BELIEVE anymore! The world is a very horrible place and I want to BELIEVE that it's happy and there is some hope left, but I KNOW there isn't. where have all the good people gone? Are me and becca the only ones left? I didn't even think about people actually lieing until I got in to highschool. highschool has corrupted me and now there is only what 8 months left of it and what if the real world is harder like they say it is and I don't think I could take that.
on a lighter note, we went to go see ryan last night and becca got so drunk that she was crying 90% of the time, but I got to remind her this morning that she licked ryans foot last night. muhahahahaha! black mail much?
on a lighter note, we went to go see ryan last night and becca got so drunk that she was crying 90% of the time, but I got to remind her this morning that she licked ryans foot last night. muhahahahaha! black mail much?