ninjagrrrl

payday!!! sooooosososo so excited. gonna get me a TV tonight.

and a bunch of stuff for people.

feeling a little better about xmas today. yesterday i ranted on a board i visit:


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Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2003 3:27 pm Post subject: i hate christmas
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i am starting to hate it too.

people around me are getting lost in the consumerism of it all

i don't even want anything for christmas. i hate how people expect things, i hate how there is pressure to match the worth of gifts, i hate how people ask people what they want - i hate telling people that i want stuff... i really don't need anything. i don't want big extravagant gifts and i don't want to give big extravagant gifts. i don't need to do those things to show people i care about them.

i can't even say "nothing" anymore because they draw it out of me. my mom asks for a xmas list, and i hate writing this shit down because i don't really need anything but she says she's gonna get lots of stuff anyway so i might as well get something i actually want.

and when i think of things i really think people would like, and that i put a lot of thought into, it turns out, they don't really want it and probably wouldn't appreciate it anyway. and then i feel dumb for thinking it was such a great idea to begin with. shows how much i know.

the thought that counts? whatever. half of me says i want to get people on my list something special, unique and thoughtful. the other half of me wants to give them all swift kicks in the ass for expecting things and getting buried in just another hallmark and debt-inducing holiday.
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mica
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Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2003 3:38 pm Post subject: i hate christmas
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wait, i'm not done yet.

sure there are things i want. there are things that i'd like to buy. but i don't want people to go get them for me. i want to earn them myself.

xmas is turning greedy. what ever happened to loving something because it came from the heart from someone you love? getting a nice poem that was made especially for you? instead it's "oh well it's not really the one i wanted but that's ok, i like it anyway" ... or the phone call you make as soon as you can get away from your folks, to ask your best friend "hey whatdidjyaget??"

also, why do people need an occasion to do something thoughtful or give something meaningful? instead we have to do it all on one paycheque. to me, xmas is more about spending time with your family and friends, sharing warm meals and appreciating that you have somewhere warm to go and people who love you no matter what.

i have never really considered myself greedy or materialistic and sometimes i see myself falling into the same trap because i feel like i have to match the cost of what people get me, as though the price tag on an item is supposed to be some indication of how much i care about them.

i don't want anything. nothing. i want to spend time with people i love and who love me. i want to give meaningful and thoughtful, not bank-breaking gifts. i don't want you to have to curb your budget to accomodate my gift.

well. tomorrow is payday. i'm off to best buy to buy expensive gifts for my family and friends. and i'm going to hate myself for being that person.
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mica
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Location: ottawa
Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2003 3:47 pm Post subject: i hate christmas
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for any of my friends who are asking me what i want for xmas ...

i want you to make me something. i want you to draw me something. or put together something... a collage, some pictures, a drawing. something that means something to us. that would mean more to me than something material, or something expensive. i'd like to have things to put in my room that i will look at and will remind me of you and what our friendship means. art to put on my walls... a nice photo collage of fun times we had. make a mixed CD of music that reminds you of me. that's what i'd like more than anything you could buy.

or, if you have to buy something, get something for roxy. cuz watching her play makes me really happy.
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