Hii beautiful peeps!
I'll try to avoid another essay, so lets dive right in.
A lot of things happened since April. If you follow me on My Instagram you might've read my update that I posted a little while ago. From April to that post, I was pretty much completely offline. I want to say, I don't apologize for taking time away. I DO however, apologize for the way I went about it. I just told you all I'd be getting back to it, and then just... didn't. The least I could've done, was give you guys an update. I'm sorry for that.
Why was I gone? Didn't things get better? In short, no. These last few months were supposed to be focused on DBT, or rather the final phase of it. But together with my Psychologist, I discovered that most of my diagnoses were either completely wrong, or were diagnosed in a way that did not align with the regulations and were not valid.
Getting the wrong Diagnosis caused issues with wrong or even damaging medication. While DBT was still very useful, since it's more of a skills-training. If I would've worked on other things prior to starting, it would've helped so much more.
Since DBT is a training, pretty much, it has a set end date. This meant that I had limited time to fix those mistakes together with my psychologist. Thankfully we managed to fix all the mistakes and find the actual problems. I'm relieved about that, but I'm so sad to know that I won't be able to work on them with the same psychologist.
At the end of DBT, you'll have to spend 2 months without therapy/assistance to see how effective the skills are that you learned. Right now, I'm at the start of those 2 months. I have to say, it's kind of frightening.
I have decided the best way to handle it, is to stay busy. I'm not going to make promises I can't keep, but I plan (Plans can change) To focus on things that make me happy. Like creating content. I've missed the interaction with everyone here, and on instagram / onlyfans.
So there' s that. It still turned into a tiny essay, but I wanted to give you the update you deserved. To avoid my profile from looking so depressing, I'll share some positive things next time!
We can all benefit from some positivity! <3
Love,
-Ninfu
