ninezy

For some reason I have a feeling that I'm at a crossroads in my life.... but there are far more paths to take than I care to even consider. I need to stop mistrusting people but I'm afraid that if I let my guard down even a little bit I'm going to get stabbed in whatever area I expose.

I know this feeling... like I've been running really fast and tripped over something but managed not to fall, but I have to keep running because I haven't fully regained my balance and if I slow down I WILL fall. I'm unintentionally creating problems for myself along the way that I will have to deal with sooner or later... because I will inevitably slow my speed at some point and pavement will meet face. I'm really not looking forward to that.

On another note, I got my wrists tattooed yesterday. The tatts were a gift from a friend. I asked for simple chibi wing outlines. Yes, it's a familiar symbol to those on a similar nerdly level as I, but I won't be telling anyone their real meaning. That is for me to know... no one else needs to. The rest of the world will look at them and see nothing but a cutesy design, but every day when I look at them they will speak to me and keep fresh in my mind a message I must not forget, especially when I feel as lost as I do now.

'Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler...'