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Today was a bit better than yesterday, I guess. Avoiding issues doesn't really get rid of them but it was so nice to be able to put things out my mind as much as possible and go shopping with Krista and Angela. Krista and i got matching Yoshi backpacks. I love them so much!!! We are so nerdy. -0_0-
I know I have to go back home at some point but I'm scared to. I sent my mom a text saying I'd be back to clean the house but when I got back to it intending to go in and clean... I lost my nerve. I'm too scared to go back right now. Guess I'm as much of a chickenshit as ever. I just wish she'd write me so I know she won't break my neck the second she sees me. Ugh.

Glad I remembered I had a blog here. I can talk about shit and no one really knows me. It's nice to be able to vent, even to uncaring strangers, eh.

Blahhh. I can't wait to get to LA. Get the hell OUT OF HERE. Even though my next two trips are just visits... I'm going to do everything I can to have the best fucking time EVER. I miss my boys in the Dreaming... and Tim... and Randy... and Shane... and everyone else. Can't wait to see my Johnny baby.

Anyways. Back to Deviantart and Garageband and all the other meaningless things I'm doing to fill my time and avoid the ever-closer panic threatening to consume me. Peace eh.