Well, I'm home. I had surgery last night to remove the cyst from my spine. it sucks. it sucks so bad. it hurts like a motherfucker. I have a nurse coming twice a day to change the dressing. want to know what that feels like? it feels like someone shoving a red hot poker up your ass. i screamed. yeah, i actually did. i made the nurse feel guilty. which made me feel guilty.

but they gave me lots of painkillers and i have a week off work.

i need a hug. i need a hug relaly really really really bad.