nimbusfool

so its 2:47 AM and I have no idea why I'm up and awake still. Oh wait- I can hear her clomping around my house in heels. Whats the fun of liquid hydrocodine if you can't share it with your friends. I haven't eaten much in the last couple days and I can't taste anything. Not being able to taste is such a bummer.

My poor roomate- she's just fucking with him and I can hear her yelling and clomping. I think we all look just as worn at 3am after a bunch of codine where you kinda passout for a bit then bam, back up again!

I'm glad I have a friend and roomate here though. This is that time I'd get lonely- like fuck. Its cold and barren out and God I just need some passion to heat up this cold bed. Those wee hours of the morning sitting here bundled up thinking, "is this it?" This is life with that clawing emptyness so recently filled and emptied. Found out that this girl I've know for a long time is a super skeezo from her ex best friend. It just involved fucking someone your friend is fucking and having an STD scare. Delete number, moving on!

I'm lonely pure and simple- I want what I can't have so I just have to deal with it. Think good thoughts- good things are coming to you.