nilloh

well I think this will be one of the final post i make before i leave the states which means anywhere between 6-2 years in which i'll be absent....the last couple of the days the move really hit me, i thought it hit me a few weeks ago but no, All i've done this week was go through belongs discard as much as i can and read...what i've been feeling can't be easily descirbed....imagine leaving those most dearest to you behind, sure you might talk via internet but it's never the same....you can never be there to make jokes at random with people.

You can't be there when your friends might need you.. You can't react when something bad happens.....your basically a shell of what you used to be......then you realize that over time people grow apart.. Things will never be the same......you might try to keep up with each other on the internet, but after awhile you'll lose touch because both of you will meet new people/

I have a small semi depressing story for everyone.. It was my graduation weekend from High school I was going on to bigger and better things. Friday night graduation night I partied with my friends i had grown up with for the last 4 years. we had this bond as a group that no one could touch probably the closet friends i've ever had or so I thought at the time anyways We were all in denial of the simple truth.....the group that we were would never ever be the same. It was broken the moment the first one of us walked across the stage to recieve thier Dipolma.

That was the Climax of our friendship as a group. None the less we never once thought about it that the night of graduation we parited like kings and no one could stop us. But as all nights go the party has to die sometime. The next morning was when my friends started to lleave for their homelands.......Iin a weeks time all were gone except my best friend Jon...We sat outside of the pool in my rcomplex just chatting and talking about the old days..

We sat there for about 6 hours it seemed talked about how we'll stay in touch and how nothing will become between our friendship. We've stay in close contact Jon and and I....now you might ask yourself what's the point of this ramble/....here it is.

As close as you might think you are to a person, as close as you think you might be to a person doesn't mean you should disregard theifrienship.....at this moment out of the group of friends i had of about 20 I stay in contact with about 5 and only two of them am I truly still close to. See no matter what you should never disregard a true friendship, because a friendship is just like love it's just like any relationship, it takes understanding, caring, trust and communcation.....