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This is kind of a continuation of the last journal.

First of the good stuff.

I forgot to say last time one of my friends a couple of weeks ago bought me a new Buddha for my graduation present she was like over a month late and she didnt come to my graduation but it was a nice gift it is at least 6 in high thats bigger than any other one I have got, iv got lots of Buddhist and Hindu stuff. Next good thing is Im going to go watch
lennon's band play in lexington
And maybe even go and see her the next day in Huntington WV Im not sure about that one yet. The new alkaline trio CD is great and the new no use for a name CD is good too.

I would like to say thank you to all who tried to make me fell better but let me just show you where Im coming from in a little clearer detail. First off I havent had a girl friend in more than two years, I havent had sex in like 8 months or longer now, I havent kissed any one or cuddled at all in more than 4 months. I have never had a girl friend that told me she loved me and most of my relationships havent lasted more than a month, most 15 year olds have had a better love life than me. All of this and there is probable some more stuff Im forgetting is the reason I fell the way I do.

Im not going to sit hear and say that the world is out to get me and that all of this is other peoples fault, I mean if that much shit has gone wrong than it has to be my fault, there has got to be something wrong with me I just dont know what it is, most of what ever it is probable comments from the fact that I had a bad chilled hood (which I might talk about in a journal down the road) but no girl has ever told me what I did wrong if they would sit me down and talk to me before it ended I would be willing to fix what ever it is that makes me not deserving of that girls love.

The funny thing is Im not looking for any specific type of girl I like them all, I like the punk girls and the preppy ones the problem is Im to punk for the preppy girls and to preppy for the punk girls and Im not even close to being a hippie so where does that levee me, people want some one who is clearly defined they dont want some one who is in the middle, they want to know what kind of person you are when they look at you and when you look at me you cant tell what kind of music I listen to unless I have on a rock t-Shirt or you cant tell Im a artist.

Last thing is stuff I love.

I love the way girls smell.

I love when a girl falls asleep lying in your arms.

I love when a pretty girl looks you in the eyes.

I love the warped tour

I love the new alkaline trio CD.

I love all my friends on SG

I love doing 2d art.

I love my camera.

I love to cook.

I love cars.

Ok that is enough for now.