blah blah blah merry fucking christmas. the fake tree is ugly and i want to gouge my eyeballs out so i don't have to look at one more tiny lights or plastic snowmn. it was 80 degrees last week, for christ sake, and people have plastic snowmen in thier yards. i wish i could just skip christmas this year. the best part will be when i spend 7 days by myself when my sister and her boyfriend go home to see my family. hopefully i wont spend new years eve drinking wine by myself in this appartment. lets see what else can i whine about.. got the first wave of hospital bills that i can't afford to pay in the mail last week... and those were the waaay cheaper ones. and i think i'm gaining weight. it's just not my day, for real 