nikki_bordeaux

i just had an amazing conversation with my husband.he's gone for a year as of last week.i miss him and my son cries daily because he misses his daddy.it breaks my heart.hopefully he gets his webcam tomorrow so we can see each other.my son is looking forward to it.i've been really lazy and pretty damn sad the past week.i will cry over any little thing now.i should probably get back on my birth control.i gained all this weight when i stopped taking it for 6 months.i hate my body and it hates me.i wish i had some friends here or someone to talk to.my best friend is now living with his soon to be ex wife so we can't talk when he's at home.tonight was the first time we got to talk in over 3 weeks and i had to call him at work.i've never met him face to face and he's my best friend.i can tell him anything and he will not judge me.we tell each other our deepest darkest secrets and it feels greati've never had that before.i'm looking forward to meeting him for the first time next year.it's nice to have someone you can share your heart with.i can't talk to my husband because he calls it bitching and he doesn't care.lol.