Still around. Life has been kicking me when I'm down, a lot.
I've been battling to remain positive, and find a reason to keep going towards a very unknown future.
I've already lost / removed new "friends" from my new life here.
I'm struggling with another few.
Two to remove.
One to try to hold onto.
I'm feeling more isolated than just this COVID things is making everything.
Grew up an only-child. I gladly channeled myself into creativity.
Now I'm blocked. Some digital photography, but I can't draw, and I'm at a loss for words with poetry/prose.
I go days with only hearing other human voices on TV or annoyance/insanity in the hall outside of my front door.
Again, I'm sharing things for reasons unknown. Speaking into the void? Maybe this isn't the appropriate place to express myself honestly? I've finally resigned myself to whatever this all is, for whatever reasons my life path has brought me to this point.
"Exist alone. Die alone."?????
Since I was a little kid, I wanted to make a difference, even smaller ones. No attention or fame needed.
But, here I am.
Doing nothing. Feeling trapped, with no escape, and nowhere to go, even if I could.
If you've read this far, then I thank you. If fur even a moment you felt sympathy/empathy, then I extra-thank you.
Be well & virus-free. Appreciate all you can, & hold onto people you care about (let them know once in a while?), and fiercely LIVE and be unapologetically passionate & free about what you care about.
~ Niki (NA0)
