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nikhita

I left my heart in Montreal.

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Thursday Jan 08, 2009

Jan 8, 2009
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Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Not leaving the house much recently feels bizarre. I'm in London. Usually my life is so busy here that I don't have time to think let alone stay in, but right now I am playing the hermit, listening to old remixes of Prodigy tracks and researching. The freezing fog outside the window is giving the entire estate a ghostly surreal feeling, I keep expecting to see someone appear out of the mist dressed in victorian clothing. Or to find myself in a scene from V for Vendetta, or worse, Jack The Ripper.

I did a last minute change to one of my topics and so I've had to start from scratch, I know this seems like it's just creating more work for myself, well it is, but the other two essays I wrote I was actually proud of. For the first time in my life. So, I decided that I wanted to write on photography and the repatriation of Mozambique, because I really care about those two things. For this I have been studying Sebastio Salgado, some of you are probably familiar with him. This particular extract made an impression:

"Este libro cuenta la historia de la humanidad en trnsito. Es una historia inquietante, porque muy poca gente abandona sus races por gusto. La mayora se ve obligada a convertirse en emigrantes, refugiados o exiliados por fuerzas que no pueden controlar, por la pobreza, la represin o las guerras. Huyen con las escasas pertenencias que son capaces de acarrear y se ponen en marcha como pueden, a bordo de barcos desvencijados, en trenes abarrotados, apretujados en camiones o a pie. Viajan solos, en familia o en grupos. Algunos saben adnde van y confan en que les espera una vida mejor. Otros se limitan a huir, satisfechos con estar vivos. Muchos de ellos no llegarn con vida a su destino.

[...] Lo que aprend de la naturaleza humana y el mundo en el que vivimos me hizo dudar profundamente sobre el futuro de la humanidad.

Pero tambin hubo momentos de esperanza. Descubr dignidad, compasin e incluso ilusin en situaciones en las que slo deba haber ira y amargura. Conoc a gente que lo haba perdido todo, pero que confiaba en un extrao. Sent una extrema admiracin por quienes lo arriesgaban todo, incluso sus propias vidas, para mejorar su destino. Me di cuenta que los seres humanos son capaces de adaptarse a las situaciones ms dificiles."


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"This book tells the story of humanity in migration. It's a disturbing story, because very few people abandon their roots for fun. The majority are forced to become immigrants, refugees or exiles by forces beyond their control, by poverty, repression or war. They flee with the few things they are able to carry and start out however they can, on board dilapidated boats, in crammed trains, squeezed into trucks or on foot. They go alone, with families or in groups. Some know where they are going and are confident that a better life awaits them. Others simply flee, happy to be alive. Many do not arrive at their destination alive.

[...] What I have learnt of human nature and the world we live in makes me profoundly doubt the future of humanity.

But there have also been moments of hope. I discovered dignity, compassion and even hope in situations where there should only have been hate and bitterness. I knew people that had lost everything, but they believed in a stranger [?]. I felt extreme admiration for those who risked everything, including their lives, to improve their destiny. It reminded me that human beings are capable of adapting to the harshest of situations."



The pictures I am studying aren't the harrowing ones of the civil war in Angola. They aren't the tortured brazilian children, left to die on the streets. They aren't the crush of humanity in the worlds largest cities. They are the pictures of hope, the hope of a people for a new start in the aftermath of a war that destroyed their country. I wonder how soon new photos will be appearing of people facing the same problems. Sometimes the extent to which humanity loses sight of what really matters astounds me. Everything in this life is transitory, nothing material really matters, yet we still fight for power, couching it in grandiose terms and convincing ourselves that it is the right thing to do. Sometimes there is no other way. Sometimes, however, there has to be another solution.

I now understand what my 18th century french literature teacher was trying to say about the affect reading has on us. I am not accusing, just thinking out loud as it were. I am no morally better than anyone else. I am still a product of todays society.

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And, because it doesn't fit with this entry. The thing I was hoping not to fuck up before christmas has fucked up without me even doing anything. So I am left, as usual, a little bit confused as to what happened. Bollocks.

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christinarenee:
... hey gorgeous.... good to always see more of your sets poppin around and that your doing good
Jan 12, 2009
miyo:
thank you lovely kiss
Jan 13, 2009

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