This is № 2 in my incredibly boring series of posts on artificially induced late onset puberty – a term I just invented.
On with the boring details, set out as objectively as I can manage given that I am a completely fucked up emotional wreck.
Physical effects; now two - tiredness. I’m coping a little better with this than I was, but it’s still debilitating. Breast tenderness is something I was expecting, but not for a while, so this might be psychosomatic, considering that 1; I am very susceptible to psychosomatic symptoms when I’m stressed, and 2; I have breast tenderness to some extent all the time anyway.
Mental effects; The same as before - dead weepy, very clingy, trouble gaiting emotions, feelings of rejection and loneliness. The nasty new one is a horribly insidious trend of suicidal thoughts. I would have thought I was completely immune to that. I would have been wrong. I have lost someone I loved totally to suicide, so I know the pain it causes in others. That is a great deterrent and the knowledge of it helps me. Don’t worry on my behalf, I’m in control.
I look forward to a post-puberty existence as a woman 😊. Soon, please!
