nikalovick

as i sit here at work, i ponder, what is instore for me? im mean my bestest friend moved to the other coast, my mom is now moving to florida. my brother well he moved to his own version of heaven, prolly all military and shit. so im torn, right now. being the gypsy that i am, i am feeling the urge to move again, but to where? i mostly think this is the reason why i keep to myself, no attachments so i can just pick up and leave. but this time if and when i leave. where ever i settle will be the last place. im at the point in my life where its time to settle. and it scares me. when i was in school, i wasnt able to convay my feelings to well, so i kept them locked up and took it out on my body. pain for me is the release i longed for. then not now. being who i am, makes me strong. ive learned not to care for things that most ppl do. well thats all for now