NIHL really wishes that her girlfriend and boyfriend would reappear. They have been gone and not talking far too long. Boyfriend, please get girlfriend on MSN. Facebook is shitty for conversations. I want to chit chat.
It seems that in a normal state I act in the same ways as at other times...I blame it all on my sex drive. I know I promised, but...
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The puppy dog faces finally worked! I got Crush to stay over lol.
My puppy dog faces are really, usually quite effective (secret weapon to get what Nihly wants), he's just very good at resisting, dammit. I'm surprised he went this long...I have to say, I'm very impressed.
hehehehehe ahhhh ok work tonite I guess nothing else really interesting. hahahaha then I won't know what...
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meconqueso:
I've been missing you lil Nihly. I might have to find the wallflower book, maybe in some way it will help.
meconqueso:
I know you're busy, just us crossing at odd times and such.
Last nite Crush came over. Things are good. I think he was happy because I was smiling alot. He was holding me in his arms, and he apologized for REAL this time, about not calling when he got home from BC.
You know, you can't get over things people have done to you until they understand how much it meant to you and just what...
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You know, you can't get over things people have done to you until they understand how much it meant to you and just what...
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meconqueso:
I'm so happy you're happy. You deserve happy.
curss:
What do you mean you have no friends...hey...remember me?....hahaha...you mooks should come hang out downtown sometime for the day...I'll clean your clocks at pool...crush you and send you home in utter humiliation...BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!
p.s.- I'm glad to hear you're smiling too...you have such nice teeth...
p.s.- I'm glad to hear you're smiling too...you have such nice teeth...
I write alot. Sometimes they're just phrases on scraps of paper that come to my head, and I find whatever is around to write it down before it's forgotten. And sometimes they stay phrases til I find the appropriate time and place for them. And some poems never get shaped into anything all that coherent beyond ramblings.
But this furvorous writing, I don't know why...
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But this furvorous writing, I don't know why...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
I am around, just busy... busy.. busy and it keeps me from the comp. I like being out in the world too much to be on the comp too much at home. Besides my job keeps me in front of a comp all day... so when not working I want to be free of the beast!
Just helping my dad take care of Grandmothers things... and helping my other grandmother sell some of her stuff on Craigslist. Whew.... lots of work!
I think it could be settling down soon.
Keep up the good reads!
Just helping my dad take care of Grandmothers things... and helping my other grandmother sell some of her stuff on Craigslist. Whew.... lots of work!
I think it could be settling down soon.
Keep up the good reads!
curss:
It's always difficult losing any person in your life that has some measure of importance...regardless of the role the played...sorry I haven't ben around much for awhile Nihly...i've just been having a weird/rough go of it lately...I always want you to feel that I'm here to help and support you...but honestly- I just didn't have the strength for us both...and I didn't feel like burdening you with alot of crap(even tho I'm sure you'd have beeen willing to listen-thank you)...I'll be available more this week- so we should talk/chat/rant/rave and catch up...miss your guts hahahah...
p.s.-thanks for the kind words about the writing...I haven't bothered in many years...I forgot how necessary it is for me to clear my thoughts...
p.s.-thanks for the kind words about the writing...I haven't bothered in many years...I forgot how necessary it is for me to clear my thoughts...
Men and women can be friends if one or either of them does not get feelings for the other or each other. That's a simply answered question, It's just an easier said than done kinda of thing.
Funny quote I heard yesterday: " Plan B right now is to make Plan A work." haha ok.
Work was freezing cold. I had SIX layers on. I...
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Funny quote I heard yesterday: " Plan B right now is to make Plan A work." haha ok.
Work was freezing cold. I had SIX layers on. I...
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el_duderino2:
I've got heaps of friends that are girls - like heaps - about 50-50 ratio (if not in favour of the wymmin)
I just enjoy their company more - no macho pretenses haha. I know what you mean though - I know I've been attracted to friends and versa the vice and yet when all is clear on boundaries and such it's never been an issue - these need to be clear.
and as for arrogant co-workers that think they know all - if they knew anything at all they would know that they don't know much.
clearly.
sarcasm is great especially online cos no-one can tell - there's no such thing as emphasis in cyber-space.
I just saw my highschool's dance concert - jazz ballet-arama, haha
I just enjoy their company more - no macho pretenses haha. I know what you mean though - I know I've been attracted to friends and versa the vice and yet when all is clear on boundaries and such it's never been an issue - these need to be clear.
and as for arrogant co-workers that think they know all - if they knew anything at all they would know that they don't know much.
clearly.
sarcasm is great especially online cos no-one can tell - there's no such thing as emphasis in cyber-space.
I just saw my highschool's dance concert - jazz ballet-arama, haha
0rigin:
I personally cannot be a friend with a girl if I'm seriously into them... but in the tense im talking about is when her feelings "change" and only want friendship for x amount of time.
Once again...a boy(s) dilemma, which I shall write out for your entertainment...hahahaha how does this happen?
I want to eventually at some point become Crush's g/f. But I am wondering if he really wants that, after *ahem* certain disappoints upon his return from BC. He seems to just want laidback fun. Mind you, I'm no free cow. Things are still PG13 between us.
I don't...
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I want to eventually at some point become Crush's g/f. But I am wondering if he really wants that, after *ahem* certain disappoints upon his return from BC. He seems to just want laidback fun. Mind you, I'm no free cow. Things are still PG13 between us.
I don't...
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el_duderino2:
i'll be your friend.
you are (and I'm going to be dorky) Polaris from Xmen - the mistress of magnetism haha.
but for dudes. An intoxicating individual - or something.
do what you feel is right for you.
you're a good
by me.
yup.
you are (and I'm going to be dorky) Polaris from Xmen - the mistress of magnetism haha.
but for dudes. An intoxicating individual - or something.
do what you feel is right for you.
you're a good
by me.
yup.
meconqueso:
well first of all, you have to watch the movie, it's a classic in so many ways. But one of the big conversations that runs through the film is "can men and women actually be friends?" It never gets answered really, but it makes for an interesting topic of discussion.
am i getting into trouble? or am i doing what's right for me.
it feels good now but will it tomorrow? that's the question that bothers me.
i never know, because i don't know myself. confusing.
it's a conundrum i'll probably be puzzling out. i'll check it in the morning
maybe then there'll be more clarity. i can't question every little thing i do,
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it feels good now but will it tomorrow? that's the question that bothers me.
i never know, because i don't know myself. confusing.
it's a conundrum i'll probably be puzzling out. i'll check it in the morning
maybe then there'll be more clarity. i can't question every little thing i do,
or...
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el_duderino2:
i gotta say that I enjoyed (if that could ever be the right word) our chat last night (morning) to speak troth - I thought about it a lot.
I thought I'd send you that Poem I was talking about sleep deprivation. This is circa 2002 so after re-reading it I would make some different choices now - but as the poem dictates - I am pledged to not change a word.
A THIN CANDY SHELL AND NO NIGHT'S SLEEP
As you drain this dream like a boil I scream and wince in pain
And feel compelled to wish your hell to be my heaven
I'd sigh if you cried but that would be the end
I'd lay my hand on your shoulder but I wouldn't hold you
As much as I care for you when it comes down to the punch
I don't want to be the one who's unconscious on the floor
We all dance 'til we fall over, exhausted
We all dance and we all fall. Exhausted
And I ask myself why we can't learn moderation
I guess it's the excitement that drives us
But as I see this dream with perfect vision I smile
Sleep deprivation can make the clouds subside
In the morning when I look over this verse I know
It will not seem as brilliant as it is now
So I'll let it be what it is and nothing else
And when I see it I will not be the judge
But a witness to a warped truth
And even though the words lose lustre
And even though the thoughts are tangled
I know that the intention of exploration wast there
And that intention gets me through
A ticking clock - a symbol of the continuous
And even when this clock's batteries run dry
There will be others to replace them in an instant
Time will not stop. Time is constant
Thought is constant and at this god forsaken hour
I cannot turn off these harpies screaming in my head
Ideas like demons that will not subside
They keep me from sleep - they keep me from normality
A bustling metropolis
A city with no business hours
It's open season all year long
And the bags under my eyes prove it
They are packed with no-where to go
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oh and your dad does look like einstein huh. haha.
look forward to chatting again mondo soon mademoiselle.
I thought I'd send you that Poem I was talking about sleep deprivation. This is circa 2002 so after re-reading it I would make some different choices now - but as the poem dictates - I am pledged to not change a word.
A THIN CANDY SHELL AND NO NIGHT'S SLEEP
As you drain this dream like a boil I scream and wince in pain
And feel compelled to wish your hell to be my heaven
I'd sigh if you cried but that would be the end
I'd lay my hand on your shoulder but I wouldn't hold you
As much as I care for you when it comes down to the punch
I don't want to be the one who's unconscious on the floor
We all dance 'til we fall over, exhausted
We all dance and we all fall. Exhausted
And I ask myself why we can't learn moderation
I guess it's the excitement that drives us
But as I see this dream with perfect vision I smile
Sleep deprivation can make the clouds subside
In the morning when I look over this verse I know
It will not seem as brilliant as it is now
So I'll let it be what it is and nothing else
And when I see it I will not be the judge
But a witness to a warped truth
And even though the words lose lustre
And even though the thoughts are tangled
I know that the intention of exploration wast there
And that intention gets me through
A ticking clock - a symbol of the continuous
And even when this clock's batteries run dry
There will be others to replace them in an instant
Time will not stop. Time is constant
Thought is constant and at this god forsaken hour
I cannot turn off these harpies screaming in my head
Ideas like demons that will not subside
They keep me from sleep - they keep me from normality
A bustling metropolis
A city with no business hours
It's open season all year long
And the bags under my eyes prove it
They are packed with no-where to go
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oh and your dad does look like einstein huh. haha.
look forward to chatting again mondo soon mademoiselle.
meconqueso:
Hugs.
Sunday's writing is attached into my comments section...
another big pssssht tonite.
i love that ppl say one thing, then completely do another. trying not too read to far into things. guess i'm going to go get up to my own things for awhile. someone isn't interested in acting on all the sweet stuff he said... I seem to be quite low on the priority...
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another big pssssht tonite.
i love that ppl say one thing, then completely do another. trying not too read to far into things. guess i'm going to go get up to my own things for awhile. someone isn't interested in acting on all the sweet stuff he said... I seem to be quite low on the priority...
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meconqueso:
take care luv. i think there's something in the moon or whatever. I'm in a bit of a place myself.
el_duderino2:
yeeeah. I love docos too. My entire semester in Media Studies was devoted to students creating Documentaries for the Bayside Film Festival - and one of my groups won a prize!! hoozah!
it was on the drought - a pretty dry topic but well produced (pardon the pun there)
I'm going to go into pre-production for a new doco tomorrow night - hopefully we'll get funding and stuff cos I think it's a great idea.
anyway miss neurosis (we know it's a little bit true) hope you're well.
it was on the drought - a pretty dry topic but well produced (pardon the pun there)
I'm going to go into pre-production for a new doco tomorrow night - hopefully we'll get funding and stuff cos I think it's a great idea.
anyway miss neurosis (we know it's a little bit true) hope you're well.
psssht
i just want to get wasted
skinny dipping? don't dare me, consider my clothes gone
you're in way to deep my friend. better get your head above the water if you know whats good for you....
and just an apology to go out:
Dear Kiri,
I'm sorry I sometimes I hate you. I'm sorry I wish you dead.
I'm sorry I didn't protect you....
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i just want to get wasted
skinny dipping? don't dare me, consider my clothes gone
you're in way to deep my friend. better get your head above the water if you know whats good for you....
and just an apology to go out:
Dear Kiri,
I'm sorry I sometimes I hate you. I'm sorry I wish you dead.
I'm sorry I didn't protect you....
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el_duderino2:
we all have our masks beauty.
consider me dreaming of you skinny dipping. yup.
consider me dreaming of you skinny dipping. yup.
meconqueso:
Sneaky little bird you are.
Today is my mom's birthday, I made her a card and her gift is waiting downstairs...
Today is my best friend's birthday, but i'm bought a lil' time b/c she's in windsor til august hehehe.
Crush got back late last night I guess. I still haven't heard from him. It's 9pm.
But of course my mind is going through all the worst case scenarios. I...
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Today is my best friend's birthday, but i'm bought a lil' time b/c she's in windsor til august hehehe.
Crush got back late last night I guess. I still haven't heard from him. It's 9pm.
But of course my mind is going through all the worst case scenarios. I...
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frenchy:
Yeah, let's do this! Let's go to Paris!!
Oh but you can't bc you're in a "relationship" DUH!
Oh but you can't bc you're in a "relationship" DUH!
frenchy:
sorry to hear that hon (Not eheh) but remember this...
"France invented sex during the day, the mnage trois, lingerie and the tongue."
Traveling buddies can lead to many things
"France invented sex during the day, the mnage trois, lingerie and the tongue."
Traveling buddies can lead to many things
Got some more stuff for him today. Been researching raw food diets and gonna see if I can slowly roll him to a raw food diet. We shall see. Also bought a phermone thing for the kitchen to try to calm him down a bit when he is in the house and reduce his spraying and marking behaviors. We shall see.
Went and saw the bodyworks 3 exhibit at the local museum this last week. Simply fabulous. I thought that Natalie was going to be sick. hehe... but I loved it.
Been experimenting at a couple of fabulous new restuarants in town with some friends. Just getting out and about. Also just finished re reading a book I read a couple years ago. Had a huge impact on me then, less so not because I knew the ending. But it still hit me hard. I am such a sentimental old coot.
Been sticking to my new diet and all seems to be going well, got a few bike rides in and I think I have actually lost a pound or two. Good for me. Like you I think I feel better in general when I excersize.
Not much else. Hope you are well.
Sean