i am trying to be closer with the people i love, but i still don't want them hurting over my hurting. so they are still at arms length...i'm not doing as well with this "being open" as i thought. i always thought i was open enough, but i guess only spread thin over people who can't/won't care as much, which, then, is a reflection of...
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curss:
I'm sorry hun...I'm not sure why she'd do that...
curss:
she does have alot going on...we don't speak or msg very much...I'm sure she just feels over-whelmed sometimes...like all of us
Man, I need to talk to my sister more.
We are way more alike than i realize and it makes me feel not so bad after all.
I have an ally in her.
I might go out to chill with her at her place in guelph. Or next weekend go with her to a kegger in TO, cuz I have it off. Curses if you're...
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We are way more alike than i realize and it makes me feel not so bad after all.
I have an ally in her.
I might go out to chill with her at her place in guelph. Or next weekend go with her to a kegger in TO, cuz I have it off. Curses if you're...
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el_duderino2:
i like your profile quote. I've always said that their is perfection in imperfection. same deal methinks.
i'm the same with my bro - i barely ever speak to him but when we do I realise that we have a fair bit in common - we are polar opposites but I guess even poles have similarities.
i think being single will be good for you. have some nihly time - work out where you want to go and then go there.
and stuff.
i'm the same with my bro - i barely ever speak to him but when we do I realise that we have a fair bit in common - we are polar opposites but I guess even poles have similarities.
i think being single will be good for you. have some nihly time - work out where you want to go and then go there.
and stuff.
curss:
Of course I still read these...gotta keep tabs on ya and make sure you're doin alright...just got alot of crap on my plate-don't always have the strength to comment for ya...lemmy know if you're in the big city...we'll hang for sure...xoxo
single again, but it's ok.
rob sent me a message today on my phone that said i can start loving myself by starting to eat again.
that is a good place to start. he really knows me too well now. he's unconditionally accepting of me.
it feels good. even if he gets jealous, even if he wishes he were the one that were my boyfriend,...
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rob sent me a message today on my phone that said i can start loving myself by starting to eat again.
that is a good place to start. he really knows me too well now. he's unconditionally accepting of me.
it feels good. even if he gets jealous, even if he wishes he were the one that were my boyfriend,...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
All expense paid vacations? I did not know you were in the market for those! (digs in pocket for spare change) 
el_duderino2:
look after nihly - sounds like a plan to me.
and i can't declare that I am unhappy to hear that you can take nudie shots again. haha. 
and i can't declare that I am unhappy to hear that you can take nudie shots again. haha.
why are these molehills so hard to mount?
you made them Everests with you own self doubt
and how can you trust a single thing you've felt
when you look around
but don't know where you are?
You can't love somebody if you can't love yourself
girl, you can't love somebody cuz you don't know how
to love yourself
so you're lonely, yeah so lonely...
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you made them Everests with you own self doubt
and how can you trust a single thing you've felt
when you look around
but don't know where you are?
You can't love somebody if you can't love yourself
girl, you can't love somebody cuz you don't know how
to love yourself
so you're lonely, yeah so lonely...
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meconqueso:
je t'aime petite Nihly. A least you realize what you're lacking. Changing the way you think about yourself isn't easy at all. But I have faith in you.
el_duderino2:
for every step backward try and make a few steps forward - hope you are having a good day bella.
So, to keep in touch with my best friend Amy who is in Windsor finishing up university courses until mid to the end of August, I am cutting and pasting my blogs, or today is the other way around, this is an email I wrote to her. So It's long and it might me repeating stuff I have already said. Or repeating things I've talked...
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HEY!
ok well i did some shitty stuff, morally. (by someone else's morals, not MINE). but i feel better (itallicas on the "I")...I don't know about other people, I think the feel like shit and kinda helpless.
Mark REALLY doesn't know how to deal with me when i have an episode like that, and unfortunately he called at really bad times when I was freakin...
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ok well i did some shitty stuff, morally. (by someone else's morals, not MINE). but i feel better (itallicas on the "I")...I don't know about other people, I think the feel like shit and kinda helpless.
Mark REALLY doesn't know how to deal with me when i have an episode like that, and unfortunately he called at really bad times when I was freakin...
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meconqueso:
all you can do is try. sometimes things work out, sometimes someone's hangups get in the way. try to enjoy the ride
curss:
hey you...how you been since this last "incident"?
WHOA WHOA WHOA!
BP/PMS Breakdown City.
How quickly things change...suddenly everything seems wrong to me. I even would like to die. Here I am again at the bottom. Please, it's running through my mind that I am a total failure, I will never amount to anything, I am tired of fighting, I am a walking problem and I can't even keep it concealed anymore. Everyone...
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BP/PMS Breakdown City.
How quickly things change...suddenly everything seems wrong to me. I even would like to die. Here I am again at the bottom. Please, it's running through my mind that I am a total failure, I will never amount to anything, I am tired of fighting, I am a walking problem and I can't even keep it concealed anymore. Everyone...
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curss:
I hope you're feeling better soon hun...we'll talk sometime over the weelend...xoxo
bridgetwnpeddler:
yes yes.. hospital bad. Really only for true after hours emergencies and when your own doctor has put you there but is your attending physician..
gah.. I hate them.
As I am sure you do.
You know for me the most powerful thing in a situation like that? Is knowing that I have been there before and I always come out the other side. That my dear is the wisdom of your experience and is the most powerful weapon you have when the black cloud hovers.
My heart goes out to you.
gah.. I hate them.
As I am sure you do.
You know for me the most powerful thing in a situation like that? Is knowing that I have been there before and I always come out the other side. That my dear is the wisdom of your experience and is the most powerful weapon you have when the black cloud hovers.
My heart goes out to you.
I am cleaning my room today. It is a day long project. I am normally a neat and tidy person (to the MAX), but it has been destroyed over the past month by a busy, working, tired, partying Nihly tornado who just can't seem to muster the motivation to fold laundry anymore...and I have way too many clothes, btw. Shoes and accessories now too.
I...
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el_duderino2:
i would think that 'bailing' implies that you meant to fall where as no-one wants to eat shit haha.
things seem to be swimmingly good.
i'm jealous of your summer days/daze.
things seem to be swimmingly good.
i'm jealous of your summer days/daze.
nihly:
check it!
nice stencil nick made me
profile pic # 2, now time to bomb parksssss
nice stencil nick made me
profile pic # 2, now time to bomb parksssss
Today is random story day:
Things I really hate to litter pick:
-cigarette butts
-straw wrappers
-bread bag clips
-small candy wrappers
-confetti (from piniattas, i hate it when you do that people!!!)
-the wrappers from the tops of cigarette boxes
-bottle caps
-full bottles of water (why did you throw that on the ground?)
-dead fish/birds
-stickers
-the wooden type of forks
-condoms, obviously...
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Things I really hate to litter pick:
-cigarette butts
-straw wrappers
-bread bag clips
-small candy wrappers
-confetti (from piniattas, i hate it when you do that people!!!)
-the wrappers from the tops of cigarette boxes
-bottle caps
-full bottles of water (why did you throw that on the ground?)
-dead fish/birds
-stickers
-the wooden type of forks
-condoms, obviously...
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el_duderino2:
haha you and your skinny dipping.
el_duderino2:
oh and tis a shame if you decide to take down the nakidity. 
I'm alive. Just a lot happening for Nihly. She has a boyfriend now. It is a very weird thing to say "boyfriend". I keep saying it to get used to it, kinda. I don't really like the word actually.
Crush has turned into a boyfriend...how that came about, the conversation, I find kinda hilarious. I will edit this later to tell but right now I...
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Crush has turned into a boyfriend...how that came about, the conversation, I find kinda hilarious. I will edit this later to tell but right now I...
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curss:
I'm happy for you hun...and your new BOYFRIEND...hahaha...i was gonna keep typing that word over and over again cuz you're not used to it...but i'm tired...and speakin of-why are you up so late?????
brocklee:
travelin somewhere...could be anywhere......