nihly

last night i went to emerg because i keep getting depressed and i keep having suicidal thoughts. we sat for a long time, of course, and then they said they were going to do a health check, but the doctor just came in and said they couldn't do anything for me tonight, that i'd have to come in today. and that i wil porbably need to change my meds. none of this do i actually want to do. i would like to just get my work done without freaking about it. oh, and my dad got me very very sick. it probably didn't help last night, either. i knew it was going to happen grrrr. anyways. still here.

NIHLY

later: it's ok i got to the hosiptal they are all very redundant there and it's stupid when you are in crisis but i won't bitch for the sake of you US citizens. I got antibiotics. I got a dr's note to cover my butt. it's now 2pm and i wrote that earlier bit at 9 when i woke up. i've calmed down now and things are sorted the best they can be. so don't worry. i'm ok for now. i think i am going to take a sick day today. i may work on an essay a bit tonite. and i have to email my profs now.

thanks for all your good wishes