nihly

well, sometimes you just have an argh! day.

it's actually taking a lot more time to get settled back into being here again.

i hate hate hate the short winter days. my sleep is fucked. if ever there were a time i needed my sleep pills back, that time is now. and i am just unmotivated. i'm trying to get motivated, but BLAH

i miss people from school last year. the girls in my class this year are more interested in talking about the clothes they are going to wear the next day or what they want to buy than what they're doing for their art.

so they want to dress artsy, without the talent. (eye roll) this is who i have available to make friends with? but i am trying hard to be talkative with people. well, reasonanbly friendly. and remember names.

i feel like everything back here is really pointless. i am trying to keep happy and optimistic but seriously. where the fuck am i going and what am i doing with my life?

i need to update stuff on my profile here but i'm lazy, sorry. there are such good pics from NZ too. at least with that my dad feels good because these pics from NZ are coming back with me just looking really happy, even in candid moments. he says i don't have that worried nihly-look i used to walk around with all the time.

end with the positive i guess.