nihly has too many male suitors at the moment...too many. but they all have their own agendas, so i do what i please. and if they don't listen when i say "not interested", well it's their own fault if they continue on with their crushing.
i'll keep rotating them maybe? hahaha i'm so evil. but i'm all for experimenting right now and mark is lame in that category. rob on the other hand... we could get up to quite the large amount of mischief. and you wouldn't know it to look at him (hence, nihly's skepticism until recently, since he gives off this good clean cut nice guy persona) that he can be pretty crazy. and extremely comfortable with his sexuality. which is refreshing.
...or maybe it's just more of : "what nihly wants, nihly gets" (and yeah, he says that to me lol, and yeah i usually do get what i want. i am so spoiled, blah).
nihly would like... man i could play out quite a few of my fantasies for real with a person who's willing to do it with me... and the right nihly-girl.
yes, i use my name as an adjective. it actually works. well, not nihls but my real one...
unfortunately, down-to-earth cute/sometimes sexy, intellectual, authetic and unique chiquittas do not reside much around my area of residence. this makes me sad. because if they did...
there is such an abundance of cock available right now, i'm almost put off it once again. i may quite possibly go on cock-strike. now i am jst contradicting myself. i'm having a conversation with myself blog again. hahaha
ok well, new pics. i know you ppl are busy with your summers. me too, but im on night shifts right now so during the day when everyone's either working or sleeping i'm on here sg-ing or facebook-ing. it's sad. i should be outside tanning.
and reading so therapy shit. sighs. back to the not so fun stuff, after my lovely wild weekend i'm not so motivated but whatever. at least my moods have stablized. which is fantastic because three panic attacks/mental breakdown episodes in four days is not so great. rob thinks is actually had three in one night (which would total five), but i disagree...except maybe thats what it looked like from the outside
well being drunk three days in a row doesn't help so much either. or paranoid non medicated ex gf's of your guy friend who go around conpiring against you when you've literally done nothing to them, that is shitty. i swear to god, she is going to stab me with a knife. she has already done some fucked shit.
don't be surprised if i get stabbed this summer. i hope she comes and does it at work so i can get off with dealing with that and get worker's comp. yeah this is the stuff i think of.
so i sometimes ask my guys (whichever i'm seeing at the time). so depressing, would you come to my funeral? this i suppose is depressed nihly. when she's not feelin so much like there's a future. he gave the best answer yet. passed that test with flying colours...
"Rob, will you come to my funeral? Will you hold my mother's hand, please? If I don't make it..."
"No. I won't. Because you are going to live way beyond me. And I intend to know you for the rest of my life."
when he says things right for once, he really says things right. yeah, so. interesting week, good and bad, but it's all good now. just overwhelmed with the guys, now that the word's out i'm single once more...
please, nice girls, spare me. they get so boring...
LOVE NIHLY
i'll keep rotating them maybe? hahaha i'm so evil. but i'm all for experimenting right now and mark is lame in that category. rob on the other hand... we could get up to quite the large amount of mischief. and you wouldn't know it to look at him (hence, nihly's skepticism until recently, since he gives off this good clean cut nice guy persona) that he can be pretty crazy. and extremely comfortable with his sexuality. which is refreshing.
...or maybe it's just more of : "what nihly wants, nihly gets" (and yeah, he says that to me lol, and yeah i usually do get what i want. i am so spoiled, blah).
nihly would like... man i could play out quite a few of my fantasies for real with a person who's willing to do it with me... and the right nihly-girl.
yes, i use my name as an adjective. it actually works. well, not nihls but my real one...
unfortunately, down-to-earth cute/sometimes sexy, intellectual, authetic and unique chiquittas do not reside much around my area of residence. this makes me sad. because if they did...
there is such an abundance of cock available right now, i'm almost put off it once again. i may quite possibly go on cock-strike. now i am jst contradicting myself. i'm having a conversation with myself blog again. hahaha
ok well, new pics. i know you ppl are busy with your summers. me too, but im on night shifts right now so during the day when everyone's either working or sleeping i'm on here sg-ing or facebook-ing. it's sad. i should be outside tanning.
and reading so therapy shit. sighs. back to the not so fun stuff, after my lovely wild weekend i'm not so motivated but whatever. at least my moods have stablized. which is fantastic because three panic attacks/mental breakdown episodes in four days is not so great. rob thinks is actually had three in one night (which would total five), but i disagree...except maybe thats what it looked like from the outside
well being drunk three days in a row doesn't help so much either. or paranoid non medicated ex gf's of your guy friend who go around conpiring against you when you've literally done nothing to them, that is shitty. i swear to god, she is going to stab me with a knife. she has already done some fucked shit.
don't be surprised if i get stabbed this summer. i hope she comes and does it at work so i can get off with dealing with that and get worker's comp. yeah this is the stuff i think of.
so i sometimes ask my guys (whichever i'm seeing at the time). so depressing, would you come to my funeral? this i suppose is depressed nihly. when she's not feelin so much like there's a future. he gave the best answer yet. passed that test with flying colours...
"Rob, will you come to my funeral? Will you hold my mother's hand, please? If I don't make it..."
"No. I won't. Because you are going to live way beyond me. And I intend to know you for the rest of my life."
when he says things right for once, he really says things right. yeah, so. interesting week, good and bad, but it's all good now. just overwhelmed with the guys, now that the word's out i'm single once more...
please, nice girls, spare me. they get so boring...
LOVE NIHLY
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No, posting to your blog was not accidental or random.
Maybe I'm experiencing the inverse of your too-much-dick difficulty, but you won't catch me complaining (too publicly, too often.)