nihly

stupid boss must've had a bad day and stressed me out into a breakdown. because i called in on the post canada day clean up sick, he said i couldn't do that just the day of like that and we were all tired, nihly, and that now i have to take it up with boss boss. WHEN i called in an hour before my shift and the boss boss told me i could take days off when im feeling mentally unwell, that he'd prefer me too, and when i could provide a doctor's note and back it up as legit. so boss boss shows up today and he's not going to give me any reprimands or yell at me, he just wants me to sign a stinking sheet as paperwork that i missed that day due to being sick and as a student if i'm sick i don't get paid, and that was it. so fuck. why is boss-man being such a dick? and i got so stressed and totally played it up in my mind and was like "why is no one taking me seriously here?" (with my um challenges this summer). sighs. so i went out last nite and saw ratatouille with one of the city boys who is expressing unreturned interest in me and he knew i was stressed so he wanted to make me feel better. we also had ice cream. it's a really good movie. i'm just mad my boss needlessly stressed me into panic mode. and boss boss said his comments to me WERE inappropriate and everyone's entitled to sick days. yeah. they fucking are. le grrrr. but i have this weekend off i'm going to do some fun things i'm so looking forward to it. it's been rainy lately so i hope the weather clears for me cuz im tired of breakdowns. i want to be happy and have fun. my partners at the lake were very sweet and supportive and pep talky to me today, which was nice. and trying to do lil things to cheer me up. but what helped most was talking to rob at lunch and he gave me mental bear hugs over the phone. he knew something was wrong last nite but i didnt call him back when i said i would, i got crunched for time, so he texted i better tonight or he'll worry. and the bad stuff/terms he left on last time, he says he thought about alot and he really wanted to talk to me last night cuz it's all good, once again. once again. just takes time...seeing friends tonite for some laidback social drinking so, good times. happy soon! excited for boyfriend/girlfriend's show !!! mark's birthday is tomorrow but i will just text happy birthday to him and let him celebrate with his friends, leave that one alone...he already got his present from me when he broke it off with moi. we are also on good terms. i am just having trouble knowing how exactly to act around him at this point in time. he's cuddly, but i only got a kiss on the cheek on the way out the door. but thats ok. i'm happy with that too, i just don't know how to be, what the boundaries are now. we shall see...

LOVE n' LATER!

NIHLY