Sunday's writing is attached into my comments section...
another big pssssht tonite.
i love that ppl say one thing, then completely do another. trying not too read to far into things. guess i'm going to go get up to my own things for awhile. someone isn't interested in acting on all the sweet stuff he said... I seem to be quite low on the priority list these days.
so it's back to NIHLY'S list of summer fun.warm enough for nighttime jogging. time to call up the running buddies.maybe next pay cheque look into guitar lessons.
cigs has a business proposition for me that i'd be pumped to do, i hope i can.he's got all these shirts he needs some help to sell at gay pride parade in TO. I forget the slogan or whatever you want to call it, but it's good. It's a good idea.
I so have wanted to go see the parade sooo bad but never had anyone willing to go with me, being a vendor at it would be an awesome day. and doin it with cigs would be jokes. he wants me to chat up the girls, and i'll get $25 an hour to have fun. hahaha I'm down, just gotta see if I can switch a shift cuz unfortunately I am not allowed to book days off at all.
Oh ya, I smoked again last night. It's a secret. But that's because someone else told me to just "go do my own thing for awhile" after not seeing him for three weeks. My own thing hmmm? As I said, don't encourage me. Might not turn out the way you wanted.
But me n' cigs are cool. I told him my beefs with last time we saw each other, and he listened and was apologetic. He said I'm lookin a lil' small right now, but I seem much better. I guess I used to space out alot and detach from my surroundings alot more than I knew I did? It bothered him. I'm not anymore. I guess I'm making slow progress. I think we can be friends.
I miss his stories and sense of humour. So I still want to chill. And he respects the other person. He wants to be a source of support for me. But I told him I just don't see how right now, and that he never follows through on his promises...never. He asked me if I trust him and I said, "no". haha
But he is good to have around every once in awhile to just go primal, real hard, and I can cry and it doesn't bother him. Unless he's the cause of it. And I did. And I wanted to, because I need to get it out. It's been a weird week. So I guess lo que passo, passo Mr. Crush.
Ya, I think I am bitter. It sucks. Whatever. hahaha, back to just me I guess. I was getting used to it anyways...
Hope your nite and week goes well if we don't chat,
NIHLY
another big pssssht tonite.
i love that ppl say one thing, then completely do another. trying not too read to far into things. guess i'm going to go get up to my own things for awhile. someone isn't interested in acting on all the sweet stuff he said... I seem to be quite low on the priority list these days.
so it's back to NIHLY'S list of summer fun.warm enough for nighttime jogging. time to call up the running buddies.maybe next pay cheque look into guitar lessons.
cigs has a business proposition for me that i'd be pumped to do, i hope i can.he's got all these shirts he needs some help to sell at gay pride parade in TO. I forget the slogan or whatever you want to call it, but it's good. It's a good idea.
I so have wanted to go see the parade sooo bad but never had anyone willing to go with me, being a vendor at it would be an awesome day. and doin it with cigs would be jokes. he wants me to chat up the girls, and i'll get $25 an hour to have fun. hahaha I'm down, just gotta see if I can switch a shift cuz unfortunately I am not allowed to book days off at all.
Oh ya, I smoked again last night. It's a secret. But that's because someone else told me to just "go do my own thing for awhile" after not seeing him for three weeks. My own thing hmmm? As I said, don't encourage me. Might not turn out the way you wanted.
But me n' cigs are cool. I told him my beefs with last time we saw each other, and he listened and was apologetic. He said I'm lookin a lil' small right now, but I seem much better. I guess I used to space out alot and detach from my surroundings alot more than I knew I did? It bothered him. I'm not anymore. I guess I'm making slow progress. I think we can be friends.
I miss his stories and sense of humour. So I still want to chill. And he respects the other person. He wants to be a source of support for me. But I told him I just don't see how right now, and that he never follows through on his promises...never. He asked me if I trust him and I said, "no". haha
But he is good to have around every once in awhile to just go primal, real hard, and I can cry and it doesn't bother him. Unless he's the cause of it. And I did. And I wanted to, because I need to get it out. It's been a weird week. So I guess lo que passo, passo Mr. Crush.
Ya, I think I am bitter. It sucks. Whatever. hahaha, back to just me I guess. I was getting used to it anyways...
Hope your nite and week goes well if we don't chat,
NIHLY
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it was on the drought - a pretty dry topic but well produced (pardon the pun there)
I'm going to go into pre-production for a new doco tomorrow night - hopefully we'll get funding and stuff cos I think it's a great idea.
anyway miss neurosis (we know it's a little bit true) hope you're well.