IF YOU DO NOT READ MY SHIT, OR TALK TO ME IN SOME WAY, YOU SHALL EVENTUALLY FIND YOURSELF BOOTED FROM NIHL'S FRIENDS LIST! especially if you creep me out... thanks.
Today is a list of happy things. Simple pleasures, if you will:
I played with balloons this weekend and got drunk. hehe Look how happy I am? Especially in my new yellow shoesies...
My favourite tree out front is in full bloom. First on the street. Beautiful. I woke up this morning, the sun was shining and it had rained I guess last night so everything was just that much more vibrant. So I opened all the windows.
I am walking around the house in some pretty sexy stuff hehe. Thigh high socks, slippers, booty underwear, sports bar and my heart chain. Nice. Love the house to myself sometimes...
I am listening to the most beautiful music my father gave me awhile back, so I will share it with you too. If I have already posted this in the past and have forgotten, forgive me. But it's worth another listen...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfyeMZFWhvs I guess you will have just press the link. But please do. Let's not be lazy here.
Small/big feats for me: I actually called and booked my appointments for this week no problem. Usually, I would get all worked up and scared, like a mini phone phobia. But nope. And now everything's booked that I need, but it means a busy week.
I have been driving alot more now, for me anyways. And I'm ok with it. Have to hug myself for that I guess. It's been really hard to get back into that one, but by summer's end I hope to be comfortably driving on the higways. It will give me alot more freedom.
Crush left last night and I didn't, ask him to stay longer, ask him to please sleepover, or try and seduce him. We didn't even fool around. I behaved myself. He said "time to go I think" I said "Ok." and let him. He said he'd miss me. I said I'd miss his ass. He laughed. This is also good for me, usually I'd do the whiney pouty thing and make a fuss and be all sad. But I just want him to have fun, and it's only two weeks. He'll be back before I know it.
Nihl's story of the day. One about her Dad. Because she loves him so:
My Dad used to drive me to preschool on the way to his work in the mornings. He was a teacher, retired now. He's old hehe. I was pretty young. 3 or 4 years old.
I am looking out the window of the car in the passenger seat when out of the blue I say (I have been told this story so many times),
"You know, there are some people in this world who know where they are going, and there are some who don't."
My Dad thinks this is a pretty philosophical conversation started for a toddler, so he decides to humor me and see where it leads... He asks, "And which one are you?"
I replied, "Oh, I always know where I'm going. Because my Daddy drives me."
It's so true.
Tonight I hit the gym after work. My 3 to 11pm shifts are now 1 to 9's and the gym doesn't close to 12pm. Splendid. Get back to working out and then be tired enough to get to bed at a decent hour.
Have a wonderful day. Remember to revel in the small pleasure and recognize it when you accomplish small feats. For me, this is the summer of no fear. I'm stickin it out and doing what I want, not be held back.
BYE! LB
Today is a list of happy things. Simple pleasures, if you will:
I played with balloons this weekend and got drunk. hehe Look how happy I am? Especially in my new yellow shoesies...
My favourite tree out front is in full bloom. First on the street. Beautiful. I woke up this morning, the sun was shining and it had rained I guess last night so everything was just that much more vibrant. So I opened all the windows.
I am walking around the house in some pretty sexy stuff hehe. Thigh high socks, slippers, booty underwear, sports bar and my heart chain. Nice. Love the house to myself sometimes...
I am listening to the most beautiful music my father gave me awhile back, so I will share it with you too. If I have already posted this in the past and have forgotten, forgive me. But it's worth another listen...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfyeMZFWhvs I guess you will have just press the link. But please do. Let's not be lazy here.
Small/big feats for me: I actually called and booked my appointments for this week no problem. Usually, I would get all worked up and scared, like a mini phone phobia. But nope. And now everything's booked that I need, but it means a busy week.
I have been driving alot more now, for me anyways. And I'm ok with it. Have to hug myself for that I guess. It's been really hard to get back into that one, but by summer's end I hope to be comfortably driving on the higways. It will give me alot more freedom.
Crush left last night and I didn't, ask him to stay longer, ask him to please sleepover, or try and seduce him. We didn't even fool around. I behaved myself. He said "time to go I think" I said "Ok." and let him. He said he'd miss me. I said I'd miss his ass. He laughed. This is also good for me, usually I'd do the whiney pouty thing and make a fuss and be all sad. But I just want him to have fun, and it's only two weeks. He'll be back before I know it.
Nihl's story of the day. One about her Dad. Because she loves him so:
My Dad used to drive me to preschool on the way to his work in the mornings. He was a teacher, retired now. He's old hehe. I was pretty young. 3 or 4 years old.
I am looking out the window of the car in the passenger seat when out of the blue I say (I have been told this story so many times),
"You know, there are some people in this world who know where they are going, and there are some who don't."
My Dad thinks this is a pretty philosophical conversation started for a toddler, so he decides to humor me and see where it leads... He asks, "And which one are you?"
I replied, "Oh, I always know where I'm going. Because my Daddy drives me."
It's so true.
Tonight I hit the gym after work. My 3 to 11pm shifts are now 1 to 9's and the gym doesn't close to 12pm. Splendid. Get back to working out and then be tired enough to get to bed at a decent hour.
Have a wonderful day. Remember to revel in the small pleasure and recognize it when you accomplish small feats. For me, this is the summer of no fear. I'm stickin it out and doing what I want, not be held back.
BYE! LB
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I am jealous.
PS...
I think you are doing the right things. I think you have a handle on your situation probably better than you know and much better than others who face the same challenges. In the future you will look back on this period and be rightfully proud of how you perservered. After that you will always know you can handle it.
I know this from my own life and experience.
I think that you're gonna have a great summer with that attitude!