nihly

oh so many things going on and too little sleep!

met up with people home from school thursday, after I got home, after I should have gone to sleep... chicken wings and free drinks = just too tempting to pass up.

more sweeping sand out of grass at work. i think my arms are going to fall off! but the weather's getting nice down there, and i'm getting burnt already despite sunscreen. grrr

friday some of the "lakies" and I went to a pub. first "city social" (we are such nerds haha) which was fun. my boss's son was trying to getting me loaded, going shot for shot...oh god haha

later got dropped back in whitby and met up with my crush at another pub with his friends for a bit. Cigs was there too, but he was very well restrained. didn't approach crush or say any asshole comments, no fighting, no threats, and no late nite calls or texts following.

I'm kinda proud of him. he may have given some cut eye but he kept his distance and he's respecting the fact that this is what i want and it makes me happy, so he has backed off. i know it is really hard for him, he is immensly jealous (has told me) and doesn't want me seeing anyone else, but he's behaving himself. whew!

talked a bit with crush at the door when he dropped me off. i feel guilty guilty right now about his seeing me right now so soon after such a long relationship with his ex of now four months, since he did express his wish to be single following their break up. I don't want to take that away from him, and I am being a little self protective in case things progressed onwards and suddenly he just decides "too much" and backs out.

but he has reassured me that everything is ok. i told him i don't need his reassurance, i have to trust myself and stop worrying, really, and to not give it all the time. and that i am not doing things to seek it, but he gave it anyways. and a really awesome goodbye kiss.

cottage this weekend with VDay boy and his cousin and some others. I am just going to chill hardcore. I'm exhausted. looking forward to some sleep and reading and the cottage atmosphere...just can't help but relax. Hopefully, no fights this time!

(there won't be)

and then back to day shifts monday through the week. and loads of laundry sunday...three weeks worth to be exact, since that's how long we've been without and washing machine. just proves i have a tonne of clothes.

Have an awesome weekend!

NIHL!