Well, I know it's playing with fire. And now I am all confused. One guy, we rendevous from time to time and i seem to like him so much but he can be hard to take sometimes and he holds me at arms length as if in constant preparation to lose me, so I can have that guy come in one day and swoop me up to be the boyfriend I should have, the one he wants to be, the one he says he will try to be someday but just can't right now. And he tells me in between seeing me he thinks about it all the time, and how he wants to date me and be that good boyfriend and how I've ruined it for him with anyone else. He would want to change for me but he can't.
And then on the other side of things I have this guy that it seems timing is never right for us, and we are trying to be friends but neither of us really wants to be. We have so much fun together and I'm just content to hold his hand and get hugs (something I've been getting more of lately, and I don't know if that's a good thing or bad)Except other things in life take precendence, that need to be in place before a relationship. I feel like I'm setting out to make these changes in my life not only for myself but to prove to him that ya, I'm worth taking that chance. Just give me the opportunity and I will be good. And he would be that good boyfriend who would take me away and treat me the way I should be treated, with respect. But
everything is always just someday...someday...someday...I'm here today. Now. What's wrong with today? Can't people just make some choices for today for once? This planning, it is useless. Half the time things don't turn out the way you planned.
Less confusion, more clarity please. I guess that means making my own decisions, and stop letting things lie in the hands of others.
Damn emotions.
Ahhh i wish it was all that simple. I know that you are working on your own things, and he is working on his. I can't say for certain whether having an official "Someone" there with you while you work on them is a fantastic idea or not. My gut says just go for it and try. When my ex and I were pondering when to have a baby, our final decision was based on the fact that every day that we waited was one day at the end of our life that we wouldn't have with them.
I'm not saying you have to be in a forever kind of relationship, but if you both acknowledge and respect each other's personal space, then being together should be able to work.
That's my thought for the moment. I know there are arguments for both sides, but that's what my gut is leaning towrds for you at this moment.
I agree, people think too much bout things.. and try to plan it out. Then they mess it up and make everything so complicated. Why can't people just live there life and do what they want to do? Why does everything have to be "planned"?..
We only live one life that we remember, and I'm sure everyone wants that one life to be a good one. So we shouldn't let things interefer and dictate how and what our life will be. BE RANDOM!