It's raining and it's beautiful here, even if it's ruining my first weekend off...of which I'll be getting very few this summer but that is ok I guess. My friends and I used to joke around about streaking in the rain and having mudfights. That would be nice but all I can picture with doing that now is getting really sick after. I get sick too easy.
It's green again. I want to tan but it's still a bit too cold. Working working working. Next week I'm on nights 3 to 11pm so I can go back to the gym and my classes in the mornings during the not as busy times. That will be nice. And the ppl going then don't take themselves as seriously. They are more relaxed, like stay at home moms who just want to get out of the house and interact with adults. And the yoga instructor doesnt work us as hard.
You wouldn't think that yoga could be a workout, but I got introduced to power yoga this week and I'm still hurtin. ooooo thunder my favourite.
Hmmmm what else. Just got my hair done and that makes me happy. Black and purple. Possibly going to see some old friends. I need money but my first cheque gets held. I'm going to blow it when it comes in, on clothes....not really going anywhere these days because of my crazy shifts. I'll be all dressed up with nowhere to go, but that's ok. I'll look hot on my own
I've been trying to be single now, like really single, which I haven't done for a long long time. I guess by that I mean "don't fool around with people", cuz I tend to jump into things really easy. When things didn't work out I'd jump out just as fast as things had started. But I guess that made me really high strung and emotional. I didn't used to care because I knew I'd just be emotional then get over it fast, but that's how girls gets the "crazy girl" label put on them and I hate hate hate that label. I just needed to slow down, and it was hard to force myself. But going and just hanging out and talking with ppl has made me realize that being a jumper in relationships isn't all that fun anymore, only sometimes maybe. Being slow with stuffmeans you don't waste time on losers, and you aren't as blind to the annoying little things that otherwise you wouldnt notice til way later on when the infatuation wore off.
Everyone's so selfish going about their lives and not caring about each other really, just what we want and what we want to say and own and do. I'm surprised there such thing as relationships at all or if they are all just a big lie, I thing we've fabricated in our minds until we tricked ourselves into thinking they're real. Because going around doing whatever we want, it's like the only reason we felt anything for another person is cuz we bumped into them by chance, we were so busy staring down at the ground and our own toes watching only where we're going.
I do not know if that makes any sense. I was mostly just trying to figure things out as I'm thinking them. I'm a little annoyed at the things ppl do, but I feel bad cuz I'm sure I do them too. We're all messed up hypocrites.
It's green again. I want to tan but it's still a bit too cold. Working working working. Next week I'm on nights 3 to 11pm so I can go back to the gym and my classes in the mornings during the not as busy times. That will be nice. And the ppl going then don't take themselves as seriously. They are more relaxed, like stay at home moms who just want to get out of the house and interact with adults. And the yoga instructor doesnt work us as hard.
You wouldn't think that yoga could be a workout, but I got introduced to power yoga this week and I'm still hurtin. ooooo thunder my favourite.
Hmmmm what else. Just got my hair done and that makes me happy. Black and purple. Possibly going to see some old friends. I need money but my first cheque gets held. I'm going to blow it when it comes in, on clothes....not really going anywhere these days because of my crazy shifts. I'll be all dressed up with nowhere to go, but that's ok. I'll look hot on my own
I've been trying to be single now, like really single, which I haven't done for a long long time. I guess by that I mean "don't fool around with people", cuz I tend to jump into things really easy. When things didn't work out I'd jump out just as fast as things had started. But I guess that made me really high strung and emotional. I didn't used to care because I knew I'd just be emotional then get over it fast, but that's how girls gets the "crazy girl" label put on them and I hate hate hate that label. I just needed to slow down, and it was hard to force myself. But going and just hanging out and talking with ppl has made me realize that being a jumper in relationships isn't all that fun anymore, only sometimes maybe. Being slow with stuffmeans you don't waste time on losers, and you aren't as blind to the annoying little things that otherwise you wouldnt notice til way later on when the infatuation wore off.
Everyone's so selfish going about their lives and not caring about each other really, just what we want and what we want to say and own and do. I'm surprised there such thing as relationships at all or if they are all just a big lie, I thing we've fabricated in our minds until we tricked ourselves into thinking they're real. Because going around doing whatever we want, it's like the only reason we felt anything for another person is cuz we bumped into them by chance, we were so busy staring down at the ground and our own toes watching only where we're going.
I do not know if that makes any sense. I was mostly just trying to figure things out as I'm thinking them. I'm a little annoyed at the things ppl do, but I feel bad cuz I'm sure I do them too. We're all messed up hypocrites.