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Had an alright weekend for once. Went back to Rexdale for the last party before summer with my old school ppls. Which was good, sooo many friends I hadn't seen in so long, but then i went upstairs for a session, came down and pratically everyone had cleared out to go to another party way far away. So I stayed back with my best friend cuz I miss him and he's the one who I hitched a ride with out there in the first place. The next day we cleared out his house and moved some of his things downtown. He was starting to hate the Rexdale house cuz it got infested with mice (slobby roommates and no one willing to clean it up).

Saturday was another Whitby friend's birthday. I got home and was out again in five mins to go over for a pre BBQ and then we went to a mini kegger. The kegger was all of ppl from his high school who I didn't know and I wasn't having a good time at first. I'm not supposed to drink cuz I'm on some pills where it hurts my stomache and I've been told not to really. But I said fuck it and started drinking anyways. Then we went to the bar. Good times.


Monday I started work with the city again, finally finally! I really hate the first day tho cuz it's all training and so boring. And socially awkward. I'm so bad with names and faces and it's a year later so i didn't recognize ppl from other crews and no ppl from my crew returned this year, or they weren't there becuz they are temps and had already started work. I didn't know what to say to ppl or if I should remember them or not so I just prayed for the day to be over quick. I met the guy I'm working with over the summer, he seems ok. I also met the girl who my partner from last year is working with. She's pretty cute. I'm sure he'll like her lots. We got involved last summer and things didn't work out well, not just becuz we worked together but other stuff too. I hope he doesn't fall for this one haha.

I have been getting some anxiety back lately which isn't making me very happy, and then it's a cycle of me becoming anxious becuz I feel anxious again. I just don't want to lapse into my anxiety stuff again. I hate anytime i feel remotely like that anymore.

I have today off so I selpt in. I had a Sopranos marathon last night. I hope work will be good this summer, and I want it to warm up so I can go outside and tan.

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Oh god I can't fucking calm down I think I've gotten sick and all my old anxiety is back. Nothing's getting done today. Damn....