first week of group sessions done.
i have been streamed into my groups for next week and they put my in the substance abuse program too.
i think this is funny. cuz if you know me, there's nothing to worry about.
room still in chaos. things looking better on the social front, sort of.
tiffing with Rob. a joint a day is habitual drug use...
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i have been streamed into my groups for next week and they put my in the substance abuse program too.
i think this is funny. cuz if you know me, there's nothing to worry about.
room still in chaos. things looking better on the social front, sort of.
tiffing with Rob. a joint a day is habitual drug use...
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cleaning cleaning cleaning
this house suffocates me, honestly! but i am getting away this weekend, out with a g/f i haven't seen in awhile, to party in TO, and Rob's friend's bday on Saturday. also, my dad's brother fromAustrailia is here with us the two nights, so that adds to the chaos. mostly cuz he's staying in my sister's old room, where i shoved most...
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this house suffocates me, honestly! but i am getting away this weekend, out with a g/f i haven't seen in awhile, to party in TO, and Rob's friend's bday on Saturday. also, my dad's brother fromAustrailia is here with us the two nights, so that adds to the chaos. mostly cuz he's staying in my sister's old room, where i shoved most...
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meconqueso:
I bet your whole family has awesome accents. I'm jealous. All I get around here are hicks. Southern wouldbe one thing, but hicks are different.
You have a good weekend too!
You have a good weekend too!
curss:
miss you hun...
Chanel, I came across her a while back before i got my side piece done. and then i randomly found her again so she's in my faves, because she has writing all down her side...hot...
sometimes i catch rob kind of caressing, if you will, that spot. he really likes that tatty. not so thrilled about the other one. he's says it's too bad it's...
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sometimes i catch rob kind of caressing, if you will, that spot. he really likes that tatty. not so thrilled about the other one. he's says it's too bad it's...
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elly:
Thanks so much! 
pedronz:
NZ for xmas! --- thats in the middle of our summer! --- good move.
It'll be nice and hot down here... good beach weather!
where are you staying?
It'll be nice and hot down here... good beach weather!
where are you staying?
I'm trying my darndest to work up the motivation to clean up my room, it's just such a big job having pretty much given up on it for three months.
I hate clothes right now. I hate that I feel like I have to look like a walking commercial everytime I step out. Hair, (i don't do make up, really), the shoes the purse, the...
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I hate clothes right now. I hate that I feel like I have to look like a walking commercial everytime I step out. Hair, (i don't do make up, really), the shoes the purse, the...
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meconqueso:
When did it get cold? It's still freakin hot here.
A very big congratulations on making it through your parent's vacation on your own. Big hugs.
So all done with work now? What's next?
A very big congratulations on making it through your parent's vacation on your own. Big hugs.
So all done with work now? What's next?
curss:
glad to hear things are going well...I just realized that you're my only friend on here that isn't an SG...and the only one that bothers to "talk" to me...hahahaha...sigh...sad eh?
we'll msn soon hun...nite.
we'll msn soon hun...nite.
A State Of Normalcy:
Oh honey of a new day!
That breathes new life
Unto wilted lips,
Like the bursting ecstacy
Of a first love's kiss
This, no longer hellish simpering
This, no longer rapturous bliss
But somewhere in between
Where nothing is anything
Where everything is something
And it is what it is.
Oh honey of a new day!
That breathes new life
Unto wilted lips,
Like the bursting ecstacy
Of a first love's kiss
This, no longer hellish simpering
This, no longer rapturous bliss
But somewhere in between
Where nothing is anything
Where everything is something
And it is what it is.
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bridgetwnpeddler:
thank you... been a tough year that is the 3rd death in the family this year. Sigh.... I am not taking it too well. Spent a lot of time taking care of my two grandmothers the last year or so and to have both pass away this Summer is wearing hard on me. Oh well....
curss:
...I just hope you're wandering around the forest for good reasons...don't get lost out there sweetie...talk to ya soon...
everyone is absent from this, but that is because i haven't been active on their's.
i just don't do much these days, including spending time here so i'm sorry.
work will be done soon and everything will be back to normal... ish.
as far as my routine anyways. which i am really really looking forward to!
ten more days, ten more days....actually 8 working days...
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i just don't do much these days, including spending time here so i'm sorry.
work will be done soon and everything will be back to normal... ish.
as far as my routine anyways. which i am really really looking forward to!
ten more days, ten more days....actually 8 working days...
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blood_drips_slow:
bout damn time i miss you alot im sad wit out you 
u took me off ur friend list im really sad now. me got tears.
u took me off ur friend list im really sad now. me got tears.
blood_drips_slow:
im sorry i did not know that bothered you. i stop writing it.
people at work and their misconceptions...
i got a not-very-nice end of the year review
not bad, just frustrating
and it got back to me that alot of the people i have been working with have been talking behind my back this whole summer... and making fun of me. for things they only have half the story of. because i have been told over and...
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i got a not-very-nice end of the year review
not bad, just frustrating
and it got back to me that alot of the people i have been working with have been talking behind my back this whole summer... and making fun of me. for things they only have half the story of. because i have been told over and...
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meconqueso:
one of the unfortunate aspects of being out with other people, is that you are going to be judged. And just you in the personal sense, but the generic You. People judge, I don't know why. That's part of the reason I'm such a recluse, I just don't want to deal with it. People's petty thoughts and gross misinterpretations, grrrrr.
on the upside, you have a boy that is trying to help you value yourself. yay nihly! and yay Rob!
on the upside, you have a boy that is trying to help you value yourself. yay nihly! and yay Rob!
oooh i'm bad right now.
the current Nihly is:
back to having trouble sleeping, and back to mounting levels of anxiety
a lazy friend (doesn't call enough it seems. feelin guilty)
being clingy
bored and lonely
watching too many movies and doing inside-things outside of work
pouts when she doesn't get her way
fights over stupid little things
looks like a sullen teenager when she...
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the current Nihly is:
back to having trouble sleeping, and back to mounting levels of anxiety
a lazy friend (doesn't call enough it seems. feelin guilty)
being clingy
bored and lonely
watching too many movies and doing inside-things outside of work
pouts when she doesn't get her way
fights over stupid little things
looks like a sullen teenager when she...
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curss:
That's quite a laundry list hun...both good and bad...nice to see you're still around here sometimes...try and concentrate on your health more please...both physical and mental...you were doing really good for awhile...don't let it slip...we'll talk soon...
ooooh no comments
guess that means no new post
i'm being boring lately anyhow...
so no worries
guess that means no new post
i'm being boring lately anyhow...
so no worries
meconqueso:
tit for tat my dear.
This is the poem i have been trying to eek out. It took a bit, I'm not so talented at writing "happy" poems, since they mostly turn out sounding corny and dumb and I want to rip them up later. So I think this expresses it well enough, still maintaining my usualy level of um inner turmoil? whatever. Rob liked it anyways...He said it was...
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Facebook...has taken over...my life...oh dear lord save me!
everything is good just working and trying to sort out things for the fall better.
which is stressing me a bit...but only cuz it's not all done yet. waiting on phone calls.
oh my mom. she waited til i was out of the house and folded the two month's worth of clean laundry that has been sitting...
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everything is good just working and trying to sort out things for the fall better.
which is stressing me a bit...but only cuz it's not all done yet. waiting on phone calls.
oh my mom. she waited til i was out of the house and folded the two month's worth of clean laundry that has been sitting...
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meconqueso:
haha addicted to the Facebook! Must... log...in... Must... tag... pics...
Mom's are awesome. I need one down here.
How long is your friend going to be in? Is she staying for a while, or just for a visit?
HUGS
Mom's are awesome. I need one down here.
How long is your friend going to be in? Is she staying for a while, or just for a visit?
HUGS
bridgetwnpeddler:
Facebook... like the new Friendster... errr.. Myspace... errr... ummm
Just more stuff to suck my time away. I keep a little blog over on Vox and I am happy with that. I cannot keep up with SG I definitely do not need Facebook!
It has been rainy here too. Totally makes me want to curl up in my jammies and read a good book.
Glad to hear you are still going strong with mr. rob.
Just more stuff to suck my time away. I keep a little blog over on Vox and I am happy with that. I cannot keep up with SG I definitely do not need Facebook!
It has been rainy here too. Totally makes me want to curl up in my jammies and read a good book.
Glad to hear you are still going strong with mr. rob.
A Lesson in Incompatibility:
I placed forget-me-nots
by my bed
Thought I'd do
as thier name suggests
So long as you're so far away
Imagined converations
in my head...
You walk in unexpectedly,
but a welcome guest
I do enjoy your stays.
Though reality turned out differently
from hypothetical thoughts
I expected a call,
but that's not what I got
Unfortunately, you led atstray.
So...
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el_duderino2:
yeh common problem there. people wish to deconstruct unhappiness because they would like to rectify things. they find it hard to do the same to happiness because they are too busy being happy and such deconstruction is a path to unhappiness... or something.
anyway - hi there.
anyway - hi there.
meconqueso:
when your head has had the right amount of time o process, something brilliant will come out. it's just not time yet. did you get the poem i sent yesterday?
I was amused at work this week. The state paid me to create a pot logo. It was an anti-pot logo, but there I was drawing a plant and getting paid for it.
how have you been my dear?