Everything feels out of order, yet it seems to be in exactly the right place...
My life feels chaotic right now, yet some part of me knows it's not.
Maybe it's because I still have last weekend's laundry to do and I haven't cleaned my room in a while.
Man, lol, got to stop that cleaning-to-feel-like-life's-in-order thing. Bad, bad habit.
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Tonight I feel friendless...
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My life feels chaotic right now, yet some part of me knows it's not.
Maybe it's because I still have last weekend's laundry to do and I haven't cleaned my room in a while.
Man, lol, got to stop that cleaning-to-feel-like-life's-in-order thing. Bad, bad habit.
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Tonight I feel friendless...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
Hehe, I totally know the clean the house to make life seem as though it has order. In college my home was never so clean as much as when I had studies to do!!
el_duderino2:
my whole apartment = sty at the moment. I get lost in it but I made a cool arse fort in the loungeroom out of a quilt and couch. No-one will find me in there....nobody.
I wrote out a whole blog and it didn't post. this makes me grrrrr! le grrrrr.
So really all you need to know is that I'm good and I'm, mostly, happy.
...aaaaaand that finding yourself takes a long time because the more you look for the more you discover there is to be found.
I have to do "one inch exercises" with my body now....
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So really all you need to know is that I'm good and I'm, mostly, happy.
...aaaaaand that finding yourself takes a long time because the more you look for the more you discover there is to be found.
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meconqueso:
that's a nice spot. one of my many favorites on women. It appreciates you right back.
minxie:
My favorite spot today is my right collarbone (clavicle for smart peeps like me!)...it's SSSSEEEEXXXXYYY!!!! Just remember you're good enough, you're smart enough, and gosh darn it people like you! Have a good day!
Have a good day!Nihly's big day!!!
C U later perhaps?
C U later perhaps?
meconqueso:
One of the things I had trouble with in acting/singing/dancing is that every single time you go out there, and especially for an audition, you are specifically being judged. I've made contact with a couple other artists on hee too asking them about their techniques and tools. so I've made that step too.
Feelin a lil' bummed out right now. Don't really know why?
the weather? (cold, rainy?)
bout to get my ass kicked by my trainer? (guilt over not going to the gym enough...)
*i dont NEED a hard ass body!!!
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come down from an awesome weekend? (that always does it, back to reality)
everyone busy doing exams and last min papers/projects so no one's around......
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the weather? (cold, rainy?)
bout to get my ass kicked by my trainer? (guilt over not going to the gym enough...)
*i dont NEED a hard ass body!!!
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come down from an awesome weekend? (that always does it, back to reality)
everyone busy doing exams and last min papers/projects so no one's around......
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meconqueso:
LAUNDRY! I'm doing laundry too! what are the odds?! crazy world. Don't worry about Crush, you just be you and let nature take its course.
and as i said before HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG
and as i said before HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG
brocklee:
im sending hugz hugz and more hugsz your way dollface.....
surgery for what??? is everything ok?
surgery for what??? is everything ok?
The list I said I would post of the things I should/want to do to better face my uncertainty. It is a work in progress...maybe post back things you want to try more too?
Make time for NIHLY, guilt-free
Start taking photos again with your lovely neglected camera (and film cameras)
Play pool, even if you're afraid you'll look stupid learning. You're learning!!!
Let your...
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Make time for NIHLY, guilt-free
Start taking photos again with your lovely neglected camera (and film cameras)
Play pool, even if you're afraid you'll look stupid learning. You're learning!!!
Let your...
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brocklee:
how about ..Love oneself to add to the list.
frenchy:
How was your w-e?
That said, sadness. A new but super awesome SG friend ( has fallen ill. Turns out she was already suffering from terminal cancer, we have been updated by a friend who just posted to her blog. She was traveling around the USA in her RV, and no wonder, now, because it seems she wanted to make the most out of her last days. She is...
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brocklee:
my love goes out to you and your unamed sg pal and her family...i know exactly what its feels like to be dying .i was at one point and was in the hospital. im glad i came out of it.
meconqueso:
Glad you're well lil Nihly.
I'm so sorry for your new friend. I don't have any words for that. Simply tragic.
I'm still jealous of your painting skills. very cool. I think I'm going to have to ask you about art and techniques and all that jazz.
GET TO BED!
and take care.
I'm so sorry for your new friend. I don't have any words for that. Simply tragic.
I'm still jealous of your painting skills. very cool. I think I'm going to have to ask you about art and techniques and all that jazz.
GET TO BED!
and take care.
burmilla:
nice friends you have! but I'm much more into cats than snakes and guys.
haha
best wishes for your SG friend.
haha
best wishes for your SG friend.
Today I went to class, and finished my painting finally. I wanted to get it done so so badly I worked so hadcore, 6 1/2 hrs straight, no breaks, no food, nothing...I needed to finish it because our program has a show next weekend and the deadline for submissions is Friday. I was exhausted after. My mom said she didn't think I could do it....oh...
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meconqueso:
Hey stranger. I've been missing you and for some reason today got a feling to be worried about you. But it sounds like things are in the positive area. I'll be on tonight working on some designs if you want to catch up.
I'm looking forward to seeing your painting.
Later babe
I'm looking forward to seeing your painting.
Later babe
frenchy:
♥ the new tattoo! Amazing work!!
Ok, I know you guys are switching up the site and thus, this is why it is moving DEADLY slow, but just let it be known that I HATE the new layout, put it back to what it was! FUCK!....
That said.
My crush came over last nite. He is so sweet. I hope sweet enough to force me out of other people...
We were...
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That said.
My crush came over last nite. He is so sweet. I hope sweet enough to force me out of other people...
We were...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
Ahhhh to kiss like you are making love without making love. Oh sweet anticipation... oh my. Yes I remember that fondly. Sadly it is not part of my current relationship but there is always hope.
Okay so how many of these redo's have you been through. They just happen, everyone bitches for awhile, then it all settles down. Later it happens again and everyone wants the one back they bitched about before...
okay so back to the dancing and singing and kissing passionately. That is much more interesting!!
Okay so how many of these redo's have you been through. They just happen, everyone bitches for awhile, then it all settles down. Later it happens again and everyone wants the one back they bitched about before...
okay so back to the dancing and singing and kissing passionately. That is much more interesting!!
snowy:
Agreed .. what happened to the old layout ... it was so much better! Now this just confuses me >.<
I do like the background, though
I do like the background, though
Hi my name is Nihl and I am an addict...
(Hi Nihl)
I'm addicted to doing what I can to avoid lonliness.
I'm addicted to a man I refer to as "Mr. Cigarrettes", even tho he is bad for me
holding me back from happiness
I cry at the thought of saying good bye.
But it has to be my decision because:
Hi my name...
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(Hi Nihl)
I'm addicted to doing what I can to avoid lonliness.
I'm addicted to a man I refer to as "Mr. Cigarrettes", even tho he is bad for me
holding me back from happiness
I cry at the thought of saying good bye.
But it has to be my decision because:
Hi my name...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
Yeah not sure, I just know you used to be able to link to other websites... I want to stay on here but this is not really the site I want to point my family and co workers to for blog updates etc....
so I am starting another one. Just trying to piece it together. What I really would like is to link it to SG so that when I post there it will post in my SG account but whatever I post to SG stays private and does not link back.
We shall see.
As for your post above. Whew.... those are the tough ones. Breaking free of something like that is really really hard. Takes a lot of will power and strength to start the break. BUT.... it is enduring the lingering pains and desires that makes it so dificult. It always feels like it will never stop hurting. We all know it eventually does and we all eventually move on, but knowing it does not soothe the way you feel.
Tough one. I do not envy you this burden.
so I am starting another one. Just trying to piece it together. What I really would like is to link it to SG so that when I post there it will post in my SG account but whatever I post to SG stays private and does not link back.
We shall see.
As for your post above. Whew.... those are the tough ones. Breaking free of something like that is really really hard. Takes a lot of will power and strength to start the break. BUT.... it is enduring the lingering pains and desires that makes it so dificult. It always feels like it will never stop hurting. We all know it eventually does and we all eventually move on, but knowing it does not soothe the way you feel.
Tough one. I do not envy you this burden.
curss:
I believe the saying is..."Just say no to drugs" Nihly...do what you know you gotta do...it's time to put yourself first from now on...lemmy know if you need to talk...
First shall I just say:
My dad is the cutest thing ever. He just said I looked beautiful today, and that my green top really suits me. In his words I look like, "a red daisy in a green feild." hehe.
He is 65 today...I have to find some time to make him a nice lil' card. Somehow I have had it in my head...
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My dad is the cutest thing ever. He just said I looked beautiful today, and that my green top really suits me. In his words I look like, "a red daisy in a green feild." hehe.
He is 65 today...I have to find some time to make him a nice lil' card. Somehow I have had it in my head...
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meconqueso:
Busy weekend for the both of us apparently. Whatcha been up to?
leandro_sg:
So cute!!!!
First shall I just say:
My dad is the cutest thing ever. He just said I looked beautiful today, and that my green top really suits me. In his words I look like, "a red daisy in a green feild." hehe.
He is 65 today...I have to find some time to make him a nice lil' card. Somehow I have had it in my head...
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My dad is the cutest thing ever. He just said I looked beautiful today, and that my green top really suits me. In his words I look like, "a red daisy in a green feild." hehe.
He is 65 today...I have to find some time to make him a nice lil' card. Somehow I have had it in my head...
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after_monday:
Your dad sounds so sweet! No one ever tells me stuff like that! Happy Birthday to your father lil lady =)