How am I losing so much weight? It's kinda weird...I haven't really changed anything I've been doing, I'm just losing weight somehow.I weigh a little under 190 right now...3/4 of a year ago, I was at 240. IT's just insane for me to notice this, now.
Work is very overwhelming because I moved up and have to learn an assload of new things that I've never done before and have them done by a certain time (which won't be the way it's gonna happen for a while) and I have to be there at 5:30 in the morning. It stresses me out to know that I'm gonna be on my own on Monday and really really confused. It's just...ARGH!
I found "Fresh Fruit for Rotting Vegetables" by the Dead Kennedys on vinyl at Plan9 last nite and it made me really happy. I talked to the cashier about Mitch Hedberg for a quick second and how much it sucked that he was dead now. And we talked about having an obscure death. He decided that he wanted to die while fishing on top of the Alps and have some sort of mutant pirhana jump out and kill him...which I thought was hilarious.
I miss all the old times...one girl, in particular...I told her I liked her this past September and since then we haven't really talked...and it really aggravates me because she was so fucking fun to talk to...that's why I liked her...she was the best person to talk to late at nite, ever. It depresses me to think about the times that we hung out...which was only two or three times...but I drove over 1,000 miles in one weekend to pick her up from college, bring her back, take her back, and drive back home just to see her for a while...and having her sleep in the same bed as me without me constantly thinking about sex or what I wanted to do with her...just casual sleep...
I don't know...my life is kinda upside down right now and it really irks me that things seems like they're more fucked up than they are...I'm a pessimist...things are always gonna seem shitty to me even when they're not...that's my life story...things are going to suck...
Work is very overwhelming because I moved up and have to learn an assload of new things that I've never done before and have them done by a certain time (which won't be the way it's gonna happen for a while) and I have to be there at 5:30 in the morning. It stresses me out to know that I'm gonna be on my own on Monday and really really confused. It's just...ARGH!
I found "Fresh Fruit for Rotting Vegetables" by the Dead Kennedys on vinyl at Plan9 last nite and it made me really happy. I talked to the cashier about Mitch Hedberg for a quick second and how much it sucked that he was dead now. And we talked about having an obscure death. He decided that he wanted to die while fishing on top of the Alps and have some sort of mutant pirhana jump out and kill him...which I thought was hilarious.
I miss all the old times...one girl, in particular...I told her I liked her this past September and since then we haven't really talked...and it really aggravates me because she was so fucking fun to talk to...that's why I liked her...she was the best person to talk to late at nite, ever. It depresses me to think about the times that we hung out...which was only two or three times...but I drove over 1,000 miles in one weekend to pick her up from college, bring her back, take her back, and drive back home just to see her for a while...and having her sleep in the same bed as me without me constantly thinking about sex or what I wanted to do with her...just casual sleep...
I don't know...my life is kinda upside down right now and it really irks me that things seems like they're more fucked up than they are...I'm a pessimist...things are always gonna seem shitty to me even when they're not...that's my life story...things are going to suck...
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As usuall Arielle read my mind....you can't live in the past my nizzle. you gotta move on. think about now. or the future whichever you prefer. but you cant keep comparing everythign to how it used to be. fucking pointless. but don't move though. you have to stay here to keep me company. for reals