nihilism

I'm not so sure what to think about all of this...I realize that people have plans and goals for their lives and that I don't...but for whatever reason, that affects me. I wish there was a little world in which everything stayed constant and no one left me...and everyone held great conversations that lasted for hours...and that everyone was just overall happy and no problems ever ocurred. This whole college thing fucking sucks. I went with the full-time job option and all my good friends that I hardly get to see or even talk to are leaving...it seems as if I shouldn't be so distraught by this at all because I don't get to see or hear from them as often as I'd like...but the fact of the matter is that they're moving away from me, thus further disabling my abilities to communicate. I just...don't want to think about things, now...

This shit fucking blows...