nightvixen

thanks to everyone for all of the kind words and emails.this has been alot to cope with alone.i love you guys!

i can't sleep not that i ever could much...i have so much i need to do but can't keep my mind on any one certain thing at a time.
only one more day of vacation left,i am ready to go back to work,maybe then i can focus.

i have grown very restless the past few months,nothing seems to grab my attention,maybe its where i am.maybe because things have changed so much around me.sitting here alone today i have realized all the things that were different...so strange,it makes me feel empty.
i am tired of being alone.
i love living alone,but alone...
all of my friends are married,sure we are all together all of the time but when the night is over they go home and i go home,they have someone to talk to...comfort.i don't.
i don't want to get married by no means,never have doubt i ever will...but it would be nice to have someone around.
i don't know what i mean.it don't matter anyway.

i need to get away...or just be on the road,i love roadtrips,it seems to be the only thing i look forward to anymore.the only thing i have planned for this year is in september to the islands.i think i will jump in my car and just see where the hell i end up.

watch the sun rise somewhere,be nice eh?