nightcreeper

Im chillin right now at school. i go to work and school and am thinking about picking up a night job like a cocktail waitress at a bar or club. i live by myself and i currently need a car.... thats my life right now..... im in the middle of LA w me and a few friends that i am just getting to know. i feel like life has started over for me. a person who has just packed up and left for a nother life. a life im not sure if i will love andt a life that i do not know. i want to change my hair and change my name now. my family here in cali who i thought would out of 4 years now would come back into my life. but i found that i moved here and still am on my own. the feeling is surreal. i feel alone. something i might have needed yet something im scared to wade my feet in. where never in my life have i had a person truely close to me. i wonder if this is how alot of people feel where one day they realize that they have not had a family and they have not had friends concidered family. im here to build a family of my own made up of strangers that come from everywhere but the world i have lived in.