nigel_rose

ahhh, grey days. don't think just make you want to ram your head through a wall when you have no job and no life?

but on the positive side...


...oh fuck it. there isn't one. i'm sick of people telling me "don't worry. you'll find work soon." notice how people tell you that shit AFTER they have a job. yeah, when they get a job they're all positive for you. but if they lost they're job they'd be all on the phone moaning about it. so this post is directed to those people who don't necessarily belong to this site, but i know read this as a way of keeping up to date with me, and start shoving that positive crap down my throat.

piss off. i don't want your positive crap. hell, i don't want you to sympathize. i just want you to hear what i'm saying. I'M NOT WORKING AND IT'S REAL HARD. that's it. just hear it. just understand how hard things are for me right now. let me vent. hear me. don't console me. just listen.

i've been pounding the pavement for months. not a couple of hours or days or weeks. m-o-n-t-h-s. actually since i got back from england in july. there was a moment where i thought i had something going, but it came to a grinding halt that spiraled into nothing which brings me where i am today.

i've got my personal relationship falling apart, an uncertainty of where i'll be in a couple of months, and no way to pay my bills. so please, spare me the "things will get better," "light at the end of the tunnel," "every cloud has a silver lining," bullshit and let me be angry and hurt and upset.

thank you.

carry on now, dollies...