nietzsche

Saltwater and Vine

In this place
my heartache crawls
your fingers of winter
kiss cutting lines through my lips
blood leaks
and
falls / leaves
hit my
thighs.

there is too much
past
too many screams
emanating
from your dark.
my lungs itch
and my legs twitch
and I am seeing red.

bloody fingerprints on windshields.
trails four days and going.
a note, a splatter, a promise, a drop.
a smack.
this is love for you.
-----------------------------------------------I am not in love with you.

I want your taste
and the way
you push
too hard
but I can no longer
live
with you.

you say to stop.
you keep going.
you say to be silent.
you keep whispering.
you say to leave.
you keep appearing.
you say to scream
I stop breathing.

water
wood
bed
home
gone
walk
fuck

its all the same.

I am the rabbit.
you keep following me.
----------------I am late.
----------------late and sweating.
Your footsteps/ crash
Your hot breath/ remove
----------------I find the time
----------------to count your scars
I am ashamed
and alone.

I am the rabbit.
----------------Leave my hole alone.
----------------Stop trailing this cunt.
I am the rabbit
----------------I am disappearing into black
----------------and I am not in love with you.