hackushittymah...
so this is christmas?
what the friggin' hey? that was abit quick... seems like yesterday i was laying on HOT pavement like a freakin lizard smoking away on a cigarettie wishing the day would never fucking end... now the winds so cold i cant even FEEL a cigarette between my fingers and everything is wet and miserable
ive been listening to music so much... for now its better then hearing people simply speak plain english... ive turned lazy socialite! but im so excited my dearests are coming home for christmas, sister and friends... i want a proper celebratory christmas (propa chrimbo?) this year... everyones got it so fucking good all year round, pampered living it up by the weekends... christmas madness isnt so, amazing... nor special... like maybe it used to be, slaving away, eating nothing but basic foods even going hungry through the year... christmas be like the avalanche of joy and relief... it is a time for endulgence, but arnt we all the time? I mean really... fatty foods a plenty, we try and cram more in come christmas and get fucking ill... (and pretty much, if i wanted to be really greedy, i could actually have christmas dinner for breakfast most mornings... because food is just cheap and everywhere... id just get fat and die... aint it marvelous living everyday with the potential to eat yourself to death?) and then we try and sweat every morsol of rich chocolate consumed at the fucking gym if january doesnt suck enough already as months go... so, i want to sack off the shit... ive worked OH SO hard and struggled to get through another year (yeah right) i can norish myself with partying relaxing romanticising and recharging all in one big swoop... it'l' be fun
im 20 now...
current feelings: missing my youth
so this is christmas?
what the friggin' hey? that was abit quick... seems like yesterday i was laying on HOT pavement like a freakin lizard smoking away on a cigarettie wishing the day would never fucking end... now the winds so cold i cant even FEEL a cigarette between my fingers and everything is wet and miserable
ive been listening to music so much... for now its better then hearing people simply speak plain english... ive turned lazy socialite! but im so excited my dearests are coming home for christmas, sister and friends... i want a proper celebratory christmas (propa chrimbo?) this year... everyones got it so fucking good all year round, pampered living it up by the weekends... christmas madness isnt so, amazing... nor special... like maybe it used to be, slaving away, eating nothing but basic foods even going hungry through the year... christmas be like the avalanche of joy and relief... it is a time for endulgence, but arnt we all the time? I mean really... fatty foods a plenty, we try and cram more in come christmas and get fucking ill... (and pretty much, if i wanted to be really greedy, i could actually have christmas dinner for breakfast most mornings... because food is just cheap and everywhere... id just get fat and die... aint it marvelous living everyday with the potential to eat yourself to death?) and then we try and sweat every morsol of rich chocolate consumed at the fucking gym if january doesnt suck enough already as months go... so, i want to sack off the shit... ive worked OH SO hard and struggled to get through another year (yeah right) i can norish myself with partying relaxing romanticising and recharging all in one big swoop... it'l' be fun
im 20 now...
current feelings: missing my youth
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Were you in the vicinity of Ice Nine last thursday daytime? if not you've got a lookey likey..
Wish i was still 20