nicolery

Ah. So do you ever think that you're finally over someone, and then you accidently run into them, and you can't help but feel the feelings that you once felt for them before? Yeah. That's what happened to me tonight. I hadn't seen this person in such a long time, and I thought that my feelings for him had vanished. But nope. They're still there.

I wish that they would go away, but then again I don't remember the last time that I felt this happy to see someone. It felt good seeing him, and it felt good talking to him like we used to back in the day. But I know that nothing would ever occur between us, and I can't help but be saddened by that because he is everything I have ever searched for in a person. Well, everything minus the part where he doesn't want anything to do with me relationship-wise.

And the worst part is that he invited me to a party that he and his friend will be having. The party doesn't actually exist just yet, but he wanted my insight and input about where and when it should be and whatnot. Gah. And you know I'll go. Just to see him.