IT's almost Christmas...
someone shoot me.
someone shoot me.
total realization:
WOW i'm lame..
still in love with my ex... batman
i'm such a douche....
WOW i'm lame..
still in love with my ex... batman
i'm such a douche....
There's a happiness somewhere inside me.. and slowly it's growing... and I can feel myself breaking free again.
Thank you for reaching out into the dark to save me... I can never thank you enough...
watched a show on complicated pregnancies tonight... made me cry... i'm scared... for too many reasons.
Going to work out tomorrow... should relieve some stress...
Yeah... this girl = finding...
Read More
Thank you for reaching out into the dark to save me... I can never thank you enough...
watched a show on complicated pregnancies tonight... made me cry... i'm scared... for too many reasons.
Going to work out tomorrow... should relieve some stress...
Yeah... this girl = finding...
Read More
I've lost myself.
If anyone knows where to find me...
or has advice on how to get back to being yourself...
how to find who you are again...
please let me know.
I've never felt this scared or alone.
Tony, thank you. You've helped me more than you'll ever know. I miss you.
If anyone knows where to find me...
or has advice on how to get back to being yourself...
how to find who you are again...
please let me know.
I've never felt this scared or alone.
Tony, thank you. You've helped me more than you'll ever know. I miss you.
mr_rick:
{{{{{{{{{{nicole}}}}}}}}}}
wish i knew how to help you sweety...lord know if we were closer i'd try my best to cheer you up, at least make you laugh hard enough to pee your panties...LOL
rick
wish i knew how to help you sweety...lord know if we were closer i'd try my best to cheer you up, at least make you laugh hard enough to pee your panties...LOL
rick
uviol_catharsis:
just remember
that you are just chemicals set in motion with a false sense of existance
and no real purpose
twenty thousand years ago
the human species had no understanding
of enlightenment
it's just a chemical response in the brain
it means nothing
eat a hotdog
and write "fuck you" on something
.....
Joking....well only partly. Just know that what stops us here stops our entire lives. I will always be too tired, to poor,
my father too drunk. There will always be some excuse for us not to live our lives.
It's not until we ignore our circumstances and just do what we want, that the world will always control us. There will always be an excuse for us not to live our lives.
that you are just chemicals set in motion with a false sense of existance
and no real purpose
twenty thousand years ago
the human species had no understanding
of enlightenment
it's just a chemical response in the brain
it means nothing
eat a hotdog
and write "fuck you" on something
.....
Joking....well only partly. Just know that what stops us here stops our entire lives. I will always be too tired, to poor,
my father too drunk. There will always be some excuse for us not to live our lives.
It's not until we ignore our circumstances and just do what we want, that the world will always control us. There will always be an excuse for us not to live our lives.
How to be Nicole for a day:
Get all dolled up with no where to go but work.
Treat everyone you come across like shit.
Remember you miss your ex and best friend.
Still treat them like shit.
Act like your perfect.
Blame someone else.
When in doubt, mock everything.
Get all dolled up with no where to go but work.
Treat everyone you come across like shit.
Remember you miss your ex and best friend.
Still treat them like shit.
Act like your perfect.
Blame someone else.
When in doubt, mock everything.
nicole:
Oh now... it's all an act.
paz:
thast actually not too bad of a wait if you just got qued. some girls wait for well over a year.
YAY!!! Happy! My set has finally moved from "waiting to be qued" to "qued"!!!! That means I'm, like, half way done with waiting... I think! Maybe it'll be sooner! I'm so excited! I can't wait!
And LauraJean is awesome! lol.
And LauraJean is awesome! lol.
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
mr_rick:
i'd love to watch you dance.... 
ive been ok, been busy with work. just trying to forget the time of year it is.
glad to see youre at the halfway point. im sure you cant wait to have it go up!
rick
ive been ok, been busy with work. just trying to forget the time of year it is.
glad to see youre at the halfway point. im sure you cant wait to have it go up!
rick
paz:
yeah!! how long have you been waiting?
I'm growing a baby pirate in my tummy! YAY for mommy-hood! I can't wait! I'm gonna be a mommy!!! 
marley1:
omg yay 
How I know it's Christmas:
1) truck it through the snow in clothes that aren't nearly long enough.
2) find the tallest, more rediculous tree you can... make sure it's fat
3) lay in snow under tree and saw your ass off
4) drag tree up hill in snow
5) pay silly man for tree
6) stop for cheese curds
7) bring huge tree home...
Read More
1) truck it through the snow in clothes that aren't nearly long enough.
2) find the tallest, more rediculous tree you can... make sure it's fat
3) lay in snow under tree and saw your ass off
4) drag tree up hill in snow
5) pay silly man for tree
6) stop for cheese curds
7) bring huge tree home...
Read More
mr_rick:
im usually a little into xmas until that one person goes and ruins it. so i usually just pass it off as another day, and wait for the good day...new years eve.
rick
PS what did you get me for xmas??
rick
PS what did you get me for xmas??
Life is good. Went shopping and got lots of cool stuff!
things are happy. Kinda having a shitty feeling lately.. and feel i owe some people from my past some apologies. Maybe someday I'll have the courage to send them.
But, for now... things are pretty good. And I hope it's great for all of you too!
things are happy. Kinda having a shitty feeling lately.. and feel i owe some people from my past some apologies. Maybe someday I'll have the courage to send them.
But, for now... things are pretty good. And I hope it's great for all of you too!
feedthegypsy:
You're so beautiful. Saw you in limbo, can't WAIT for your set to go up!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cherry:
Thanks for the birthday wish! I love shopping!
Cherry xxxxx.
Cherry xxxxx.
It's fuckin cold as hell out. There's snow everywhere...
So, that means... CHICAGO!!!
Me, Skunk and Rei are headed to Clark and Belmont for some terrorizing... I mean shopping.
YAY!
So, that means... CHICAGO!!!
Me, Skunk and Rei are headed to Clark and Belmont for some terrorizing... I mean shopping.
YAY!
mr_rick:
whatcha gonna get me???
rick
rick
mr_rick:
how was the shopping spree??
rick
<sorry meant how was not i was LOL>
[Edited on Nov 30, 2005 8:37PM]
rick
<sorry meant how was not i was LOL>
[Edited on Nov 30, 2005 8:37PM]
So... the thought for the day... it's cold and it makes me miss Florida winters. No snow... no cold... no one that loves me. Yeah, on second thought, I'll take the cold and what not... at least I have a loving family around me, and friends that truly love me for me... not an illusion. I had maybe 2 of those in Florida, and neither...
Read More
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
thefury:
I live din florida for 2 yrs, I miss the weather too, now I'm in nosebleed Wi..
(hug)
(hug)
mr_rick:
{{{{{{{{{{nicole}}}}}}}}}}
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! hope its a great day for you, and you dont get too overstuffed on turkey. LOL
rick
PS i will soooo accept leftovers...
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! hope its a great day for you, and you dont get too overstuffed on turkey. LOL
rick
PS i will soooo accept leftovers...
Friends break my heart.
I miss you.
The Dead Presidents are no more... and it's all because I left.
Reagan just can't dance without Kennedy... and it makes me sad.
I miss my other half... my partner in crime... and I don't know if she'll ever be back in my life like she was.
Don't know what else to say... except to that girl... who...
Read More
I miss you.
The Dead Presidents are no more... and it's all because I left.
Reagan just can't dance without Kennedy... and it makes me sad.
I miss my other half... my partner in crime... and I don't know if she'll ever be back in my life like she was.
Don't know what else to say... except to that girl... who...
Read More
maddoxxsuicide:
good times...ray gun and falls...hahaha...
rick
X-mas=Shitty