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nickolai32

Long Beach, CA

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Monday Jul 28, 2008

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Sorry I haven't been in chat or posting funny stuff...

I normally don't share my life openly since I am a fairly private person and only my friends know about me but I feel like this is a story of my life I should share...

I too am having grievances within the family with my grandpa in and out of the hospital and my great grandma on her death bed...

I went to see both of them today...

My grandpa is still a little fiery pistol and won't let them take care of him because he thinks he is the mightiest person in the world (rightfully so since I've never seen anything stand in his way) Thankfully and hopefully they will find out what is wrong with him and he can come home.

My great grandma on the other hand is on a assisted breathing machine, hooked up to these machines and wires and iv's coming out of her and it seriously broke me... I am not the type to cry or show emotion very easy but this is taking so much out of me because the people I care about are in these situations... I instantly began to tear up and cry. They expect with in a couple of days she will be in a better place. I haven't gotten a chance to get to know her as well as I would have liked to growing up due to family differences between my mother and that side of the family which is definitley making it harder for me since I felt like she didn't get the chance to know what her grandson was really like and how much he has accomplished so far in his life... (i'm not bragging but my other grandparents have seen me grow up yet she didn't have the opportunity it seems)

I'm not very religious though I believe in God and that there is a better place than here... 93 years is one hell of a life to live. To go through so much her life has thrown at her to the country she has lived in and the turmoil it has broughten through the better part of the century.

I held her hand and I did not want to let go... she opened her eyes but was unable to speak and she tried with all her might to hold hands... I am at a loss for words about how that made me feel. I don't think there is words to describe that feeling...

All I ask is that if you do pray, pray for her. She deserves it. If not, keep her in her thoughts.
btyjugs:
frown awe sweeie she is in my thougths as well as you are......HUGE HUGS!! kiss
Jul 30, 2008
btyjugs:
frown aww sweetie I am so so so sorry! If you need me you know how to reach me <3333
Jul 30, 2008

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