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Monday Dec 05, 2005

Dec 5, 2005
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I cant sleep.

Theres too much going round in my head.

I woke up and started diy-ing, customising t-shirts. Then it got too cold to try them on so I ended up on here. Its really tempting to put some music on and start doing exercises (I want to lose another 8lbs). But I went to the gym yesterday, Ive barely eaten and I havent slept, so I know it wont be healthy whatever I dont want to end up addicted to exercise.

Ian came over last wednesday. Then we went out tonight. I keep getting scared because I want us to get back together, but he says he's not sure. So we're "seeing each other".

Im scared Im going to fall in love with him all over again, and he'll already have found a new girl at uni. He gets a lot of attention because he's president of the 'alternative music society' and because he runs and djs at a night at the uni. I know he's been hanging out with new people and Im scared he'll end up with one of these girls frown

Fuck we're supposed to be taking things slow, but I missed him soooo much. Its seems different now, like things are new, but I really like him this time too.

Im rambling.... but it is 6:40 in the morning, thats my excuse. I guess I just had to write this down somewhere.

FUCK!
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
chesca:
I with Meagen on this one, if you're sure it's HIM you want go for it. Sometime you say you wanna take things slow but it doesn't happen (god knows it didn't when me and my bf got back together [for the third time i might add!]). smile
Dec 6, 2005
saffa:
good luck with your situation
its a tough one
my ex ex crush is over here from south africa and its weird seen her cause i dont want the feelings to come back cause i know ill never have her confused confused
Dec 7, 2005

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