nickola

I'm a mess.

Last night Ian text me to say he wanted to meet up and discuss the break-up stuff. I said I 'd rather get it out of the way sooner and get it over with. He ended up calling me in the middle of the night. And I cried. I cried loads. I cried and cried and cried.

I said it was over. I dont think he belived it before. Either that or he didnt really care. Then I cried some more. Damm Im too emo.

Then we ended the call.


I got a call today, I 've got an interview for manpower temping agency. yay.

then I got a call from steve, my ex from before my ex. We met up. He's in a state. I love him to bits and wish I could help him, but I just didnt know what to say. So I was just there. We drank.

I went to alt night tonight. It was hard. I felt like people were flirting with ian. They probably werent. And if they were it was probably just because he's a dj and he's the president. And he loves it. He loves the attention he gets for being president. Well I hope he knows it ended our relationship. so whatever.

Im a mess. yeah I already said it, but it needs to be said. Im a mess.